How's it going buddy? What have you decided to do for you next step towards recovery? How much more time do you have off of work?
I'm off to bed for now but usually wake up quite a bit due to my back pain so I will check in later.
Hope all is well.
Brian
I'm not working tomorrow so should be around most of the day. So if you need anything, or just need to vent, send me a message. I recently relapsed but have about 2 weeks clean now so I just went through the fight myself and am still dealing with some lack of sleep and no energy. Luckily most of the physical part is over. So overall I am feeling pretty good. I have went cold turkey off of the 10mg and was taking a huge amount a day. I have also been through withdrawals from oxy 80's so know the fight it takes. We ALL have it in us. You just have to dig deep my friend. Tell yourself every second of every day that failure is not a option. This is somewhat your golden opportunity considering you have some time off. A year and a half ago I wasn't so lucky and had to work while withdrawing. That particular job I was working nights and working 12 hour days, 7 days a week. So use this time to your benefit. Trust me when I say it does get better. It is worth every second of the he!l we have to go through. So fight for your life as you very well may be doing. And you are worth it.
I live in a small town about 25 minutes from peoria. I'm about a 2 hour drive from Chicago. I usually make it up to Chicago a few times a year to go to Bears games. I didn't go this past season but considering the season they had I'm glad I didn't waste the money on it!! Man, what a tough season. I had such high hopes since Cutler came in as QB. He sucked it up though. But then again the o line didn't really help out too much. But hey, I'm a Chicago fan. I'm use to the sh!t *** seasons!!..lol
Well buddy, like I said, I'll check in as much as I can tomorrow. Feel free to message me whenever you need someone to chat to. I've also been up late due to lack of sleep so I'll check in at night also. I'll try and help in any way I can.
I'm pulling for you and know you can do this!
hey bmdad i just noticed ur from illlinois an if u dnt mind me askn i was wondern were from in illinois if u dnt mind me askn???
well i was gona an wanted too but like i said in my post i only had a small window to go to rehab i had a certain amount of given time off work thst mandatory an i was gona use to to go to rehab but i fkedup an was still using an missed my chance to go so now it sto late cuz half of my time off wrk is almost doen so my goal is by the time i go bak to wrk is to be totally clean an sober an already putting my aftercare to use an on a regular scedule. its hard to totally go in depth as to why i only had a certain time for it but basically i only had a certain amount of time off an i wasted half of it using so like i said enufs enuf so thank u sooo much for replyiong it really means alot an if u can try an keep me in mind tommorow cuz like i said everyone has certain days or stages tht are hardest for them an mine is rite befor ei start to get sick cuz i panic an start makin calls to find oxies. well thansk alot an good luck 2 u as well buddy.
Best of luck buddy and congrats on deciding enough is enough! Just stay strong and push through the rough days ahead. So many have done it in the past, so many are currently doing it, and so many are getting ready to take the plunge. I would pick up the supplies from the amino acid protocol as they do help. So fight like you have never fought before! You can do this!
One quick question though...I thought a few weeks ago you posted asking about rehab because you were going to go again while on vacation? What happened with that? Don't get me wrong, I think it's awesome you haven't given up and are trying again. Just wondered why the change of plans?
Best of luck to you!
Brian