the weekend is here and im worried

[jayeye]

not so much that im going to break down and use cuz honestly even if i wanted to i cant drive on weekends and wouldnt be able to go get anything....im more worried about the boredom....i dont know what to do with myself.

my plan was to see what happens if i stop the low dose of subs after five days....but part of me wants to go out hang out with CLEAN friends the few i have left....but i know if i dont take the subs i wount feel like doing that....should i not be pushing the being social thing....i mean i know its good for me mentally and you know what they say about ideal hands.

[dirtydirk]

pry best for u to continue the taper gettin to a piece of sub u would almost laugh at for taking if that means u get thru the weekend then thats why your guna have to do......hanging with sober ppl is pry the key though!!! get in where u fit in take advantage of your "so called" last cpl days of subs  because your not guna wana even talk to them when the subs are gone or you might wana but your social skills wont let u ( least mine never did it was hard even formulating a sentence worth speaking to ppl at times and all i wanted to do was crawl in a hole in a way.....first 5-7 days that is.......were all routing for u jayeye  youve been in the  pool this last week just swimmin from the deep end towards the short end and now u have the skills to get out that pool and start drying off .......lil odd analagy but thats how i look at it