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[10356]

I get 120 norco a month from my doc, also 60 soma, of course I eat them up within ten to twelve days, my husband of 27yrs gets a 100 vics  every 20 or 25 days thanks to me, he dose not abuse them, he knows I take them. I have tapered off for about two weeks last night at six I took my last one. Tonight he had his doc fill them again, after I ran them out in eleven days. I honestly thought he could not have them refilled, it was to soon, giving me much needed time away from them Ive had wd the whole tapering pierod. Im so close but here they are again!!!! He is a wonderful man I love him dearly, Ive been honest with him he thinks this is something I can control, because I use to  slam heroin then quit slamming then slam speed for awhile and quit before I met him, then he watched the bottle take me away and I quit that 7 mo ago, but this is different, the meds are right up my ally. I also have on the back of my mind the fact I can reorder my meds on the fourth. I DO NOT WANT TO!!!!! I have made a few lame attempts to ask on this board but I never came out with it. Ive been spending allot of time reading what every-body is saying trying to come up with a solution or if it is even possible for me clean. Have never told so many before lol. Once a junkie always one I guess. I would greatly appreciate  any suggestions. thanks

[10356]

Im going to take a hot bath I will be back I have been hovering over you guys for about a week now I sure do appreciate your guys time and advice it is very valuable and worried I will think about the junkie part for you, you were the only one to respond to a post I put up last nite thanks take care

[worried878]

tell him that under no circumstances should he give you one...that is tough

[10356]

he needs knee replacements and needs them very much I do not like myself very much right now Im tired of hurting him part of my reason for wanting off He dose not abuse any drug and they will be in the house for a long time. Im pretty messed up with pain of arthritis that was accelerated when slamming but I think I can live with the pain

[worried878]

u still can.......does he need them or does he take them recreationally?   I am very strong willed and if I knew he knew i was trying so hard and he brought them in in front of my face, i would wait til he was unaware and flush em...this is probably why I am not married   LOL....if he needs them, he needs to understand where u r at and keep them away from you  keep posting

[10356]

said 36 but is 27 hours clean

[10356]

I accomplished getting off them clean 27 hours was sick the whole tapering pierod today was the first day clean husband walked in with new bottle was hopping to go to weeks with none in the house

[rosebud66]

why don't you show your husband this post and the responses.  maybe he will get it the......


good luck you can do this.

[rosebud66]

why don't you show your husband this post and the responses.  maybe he will get it the......


good luck you can do this.

[rosebud66]

why don't you show your husband this post and the responses.  maybe he will get it the......


good luck you can do this.

[worried878]

no.....dont call yourself that either......for me?

[10356]

I never meant to call any of you junkies that belongs to me I sure appriceate your help as thru the years I have isolated myself pretty well

[worried878]

good luck and let us know what happens...i bet a switch in meds would do wonders

[10356]

I take 10/325 norco and 5513 soma and husbands reg vic none in the last 27 hours

[worried878]

I can walk next door and get them....we can always find a way to get them if we want them.....get a plan    get ready and keep posting

[GoingToMakeIt]

Evaluate why you want and need to quit. Let that decision be the basis for not touching another pill again. I have the Thomas recipe in my journals. And I would agree. You HAVE to find an AA or NA meeting and start going. You can find strength there. Please do this. Yes it is hard with pills around, but it can be done. I have done it. It was 85 days ago. You can do this too.

[10356]

my doc knows my past, my husband dose not think he should have to give up any of what he needs as I quit drinking he still drank and he thinks that I should be able to control the meds I take I really want to be clean Im 51 and started at 16 it just feels hopeless I have never been to any meetings this is the first time I have ever discussed this with any one but a few close people right now this is the first time I have had know meds in me in 5 yrs

[worried878]

so you have been a day and a half without them.......you are going CT then?  or was that your plan?

[10356]

thats what Im freaking about their in the house even if they were in the car I know I would get them thats why I tried to put time before he would be able to refill them I have not had one for 36 hours spent 10 days tapering Im sick but not as sick as I could be I know,

[worried878]

I would also find a close NA meeting and go as often as you can right now...you can go before you quit

[worried878]

get a plan....your quit date...the amount of pills you will have to it with if you plan to taper...or flush them all the day before you go cold turkey...your husband needs to call his doc and you need to call yours and tell them you do not want narcotics for pain anymore.....you dont have to say you are an addict if you do not want to...can say you are just worried about it....now if you are planning to do methadone or suboxone you will have to let them know....see people tapering off that on here...I did not do that...I did a quick taper and CT....look up the thomas recipe and get a plan together...keep posting

[10356]

I"m very grateful for my husband I wish they were expensive it would make it alot easier and this is the first time I have had this kind of support but there is also added guilt I know that Im hurting him. my plan was to put a good 2 weeks of being clean then go from there. I could not do it for heroin it took 4 trys and I moved from the area and the friends, I realize Im trading addictions I was hoping there would not be any more after this

[cathy5841]

yesw you can get clean and stay that way, but as worried said you gotta have a plan and stick to it.  you have taken the 1st step by coming here and posting.  now the work begins ask your hubby not to bring his pills around you it is hard enough when there are no pills around.   are you committed to getting clean?  do you wan to taper or quit cold turkey?  if you choose to taper how mant pills do you have left?  i couldnot do that i am a real addict if i have pills i eat um.  i am 70 days clean and if i can do it anybody can.  keep posting here and updating us on your progress, we are a close knit group that will encourage you and kick your butt if neccessarylol. no really we will be here for you, let us know what you need.
good luck and you can do this
cathy

[worried878]

I think we may can label ourselves as addicts but not as junkies...and sounds like you have been trading one addiction for another,,,something I need to be careful about during my aftercare   I am over 2 weeks clean from a fairly severe hydro habit but did not have all the scrips you are getting...so mine was much more expensive as alot come from off the streets...and yes you can come clean....you have the support of a man who loves you dearly and that si a great thing as I would have loved to have had that...are you taking about 80 mg narcs a day?  very doable...do you have a plan?