Hell yeah!! F*CK that $HIT!!!!! :D
i never felt this intensely about trams in past withdrawals. The last time i had cravings all the time. Now NOOOOO
That's exactly how I felt. I was SO ready to say goodbye to the trams that I never looked back. It's a good feeling isn't it? FUC* that shi* - it's over and good riddens. Life DESERVES to be felt. Period. :)
i am surprised how the time went by without huge cravings. I was always well able to see the trams in front of me without wanting to touch them. this is how much i HATE them. Today while packing I found 3 tram pills, took them out of the blister pack and threw them into the toilet. I didn't feel any regret doing this. Still taking neurontin in moderate doses to keep my mood levels up. they are definetly less toxic than the trams and I must say I feel ok. Spoke with my bf over skype and things may not be over.. i don't know what will happen though.. so i'm still taking 1000mg valerian root twice-three times a day against the anxiety. i have been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder before i ever started the trams so i guess i need to learn from scratch again how to deal with it as the tramal made me forget about it for a long time.
Never mind.. tramal is in the toilet and i feel good about it.
I feel a little more normal today. Managed to pack 8 boxes for the move since yesterday i didn't get anything accomplished for my move back home.
Yesterday I was invited for dinner with some good friends. We spoke for an hour about my relationship issue and they helped me so much. After that we had a huge arabic dinner.. I was a little concerned how my stomach would take it as for 4 days I didn't eat anything. But it went fine. I ate slowly and even had some appetite.
I don't mean to sound arrogant here, but I am really proud of myself to have gotten a week over withdrawals plus a breakup plus two 12/13 hour shifts..
I feel so ready to have the trams finished forever.
OMG summer - you mentioned your near week clean as if in "passing" - don't "by the way" that girl! That is HUGE!!!!
Feel proud of yourself - because you deserve to. :)
Congrats to your new job. that is good news. and even better.. you can work from home.
i'm in agony relationshipwise so i don't really know whether these intense depressions are w/d related or due to the issues with my bf.. its probably a mix..
oh by the way.. i flushed the trams i had in the toilet.. i've been clean for nearly a week now...
The sam-E worked GREAT for me - hope it does the same for you. :)