Hey dude I understand I became a Christian at the age of 26....God delivered me from all my addictions as well as cravings it lasted 4 yrs then I herniated a disks in my back...it all started out so innocently just 1 pill every 4 hr for pain as needed....I never new it would end
with a 16 1/2yr addiction to narcotics ...I look back in disbelief....I can understand how I let it get so friggin out of control...I finely gave this addiction over to God and now im a cxouple of days past a yr clean...I will be the last person here to judge...hang in there you can do it again...and no we can never let our guard down...this is something we will have to fight
the rest of our lives.....but living in recovery is so worth it good luck and God bless...Gnarly
i had 3 1/2 years under my belt. it is so cunning. i feel so stupid for letting this happen again. it just lies there dormant ready and waiting for you to feed it again. after so long i thought "this will never happen again". i let my guard down. i'm not beating myself up here, but just finally able to realize how sneaky addiction can be. wish i could turn back the clock til last december and have said "no" to my doctor....i knew better and did it anyways thinking it's only one script. of course we all know what happens after that. i've realized that for the rest of my life, being sober is going to have to be my first priority. we're never cured. it's always there waiting for you.
HI......for some detoxing can be very cyclic .....you get to feeling better then bam symptoms again.....your still pritty early on in this so you might go backwards or at least feel like it
your body and brain are going threw massive changes right now its going to take a wile to stablize both physically as well as mentally hang in there your doing good congrats on
5 days clean...this to shall pass good luck and God bless.....Gnarly
is it normal to start to feel bad again....kid of in waves after 5 days? every couple of hours i feel like i'm back at day 3 again, then it passes. i'm just speaking about the physical side of things.
Congrats poison arrow on your clean time. it seems like you have got this crap figured out. good job and keep up the good work.
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i won't be able to make it to a NA meeting today, but have one lined up for tomorrow. i do realize the importance of aftercare.i had 3 1/2 years under my belt before this last 11 month bout. if i didn't have an aftercare program i never would have made it that far.
i do take lexapro for depression/anxiety, and have for a couple of years. i think it's helping with the swinging emotions and depression. i've been walking a couple times a day and it's been helping a lot. unfortunately, it rainy and bleak today. i guess i'll just have to clean house or something to stay busy.
i'll keep drinking tons of water and prepare myself for the emotional mindscrew.
cissy, congratulations on 30 days. i know it feels so good to say you made it a month. i'll be there soon enough. patience is the key.