Today I can get my meds refilled but.............

[LeaAnn807]

This is the day of the month when my next tramadol refill is due, if I call the doc and ask for it!  Guess what?  I am not calling for a refill today, but I DID call to say I won't need it anymore...at ANY point!  This is the only doc I have gotten them from, so it feels pretty good to cut myself loose from that temptation.  

I have never taken such a drastic step and can't believe I did this!  I have not spent the last 10 days and nights miserable, just to do it all over again next week!!!

Thanks for your support!  It has helped me so much!  I am a stronger person because of the support I have gotten!

TH

[LeaAnn807]

Good job!  Way to go.  Just stick to your plan!!!  I'm proud of you!

[freedom75]

I took that huge step too. I finally admitted to my doc that I am addicted to oxycontin and he put me on a taper program. I was scared, nervous and embarrased but he told me he'd work with me, that we were partners and he was going to help me. It was a huge relief to finally come clean. It wasn't easy and I had a huge panic attack afterwards thinking he might call CPS on me but talking to ppl on here I now think I was just being paranoid. I am going to work hard at sticking to my taper and am going to NA meetings. Congrats on also taking that big step, make sure you get some aftercare though, we need all the support we can get in beating this

[LeaAnn807]

Oh, I have NO regrets.  I just regret not doing it sooner!  Now, I would have to go to much more trouble than a phone call if I wanted drugs.  Phone calls are just too easy!

[cirene]

Congratulations to you :).

Now you just need to be sure you keep the same positive attitude you have right now.  ZERO regrets on whatever you told your doctor.  Hang in there!

[leeisgettingclean]

thats great that you did that. It is for sure a big step in the right direction. You are rite about going through it now just to go through it again, thats the cycle. Good luck !

[LeaAnn807]

Thank you!  I can't believe I did that.  I couldn't believe the words I was hearing coming out of my mouth.  Strange.  I have been through this many, many times and never taken a step like that.  Had to do it while I had the nerve!

[micheleTX]

good for you!!  Im very proud of you, that is a really hard step in the road to recovery (imo), I actually never told my pain mgmt doc. that I didn't want it anymore, I just quit going to see him last Nov..keep up the great work, you sound very strong.  It's 109 days for me (ive quit before for months and started up again),  Cant say how many times I've been through this probably about 5..The strange (and wonderful) thing for me is my pain is not even half as bad as it was while I was taking hydros...your brain heals, tells your body that you don't need that stuff anymore, and it worked for me.  I take motrin daily and heaps of vitamins, still get depressed sometimes, but thats life right?  Keep smiling, and know lots of people here are very happy and proud for you!!