why do I feel so far from God

[tooter212]

I haven't been to church since I got clean. I got mad at the preacher. I was hurting so bad and I wasn't getting anything of out of it. I've always been afraid I wasn't saved but now it's 100 times worse. I know the bible and know that's not true but don't know why I feel this way. This depression is killing me. HELP I just went for a walk is the only reason I can write this

[msdelight]

Perhaps this is part of Post Acute Withdrawal Syndrome? Have you read about it? It's here in the MH pages. I have been where you are tooter, and taking your life will only hurt the ones you don't want to hurt.
Spider you knocked my socks off (brrrr) I am going to read it over and over and over! You are amazing!

[PillyJilly]

Hi...I know exactly what you mean and that feeling of not being saved .It is a tool of the devil to work on your mind . Every child of God experiences that feeling at some time in their life .Being saved isnt always a feeling ..it is a step of faith and believing even when you have that nagging thought or doubt that you arent saved .People dont always FEEL saved but if you gave your heart to Christ all you need to do is accept and believe that you ARE saved .Feed your spirit by reading the word and starve the doubt by sweeping it out :-)

[VICourageous]

Hi Toot..You are not alone. I feel that I had to re-channel back with my God over & over a few times in this past Year. Keep reaching to the Sky!
We have to keep moving them "road blocks" out of the way with Faith. lol

[tooter212]

lol

[clean_in_ks]

Some mood altering endorphins are in your MedHelp mailbox baby!

I hear ya on the Dr Pepper.....I KNOW it isn't good for me...but know what?  Neither were opiates...bwhahahaha!  So, I balance it out....if I allow myself a DP.....I make sure I drink plenty of water too and also get some electrolytes in me. (instead of that "all or nothing thinking")  Those who don't have an addiction to Dr Pepper would NEVER understand!  I have a cartoon on my kitchen cabinet that has a guy laying on the floor..gasping....in severe pain....and the caption says,
"This man is DYING for a carbonated beverage!  Is there a Doctor PEPPER in the house?!"

[tooter212]

A young man posted earlier that he was thinking about suicide but was not going to do it. Well I'm doing the same thing. It's against my belief so I'm for sure not going to do it. But a strong feeling comes over me that I can't take this feeling anymore. It's almost painful. I took my first sam-E today. I hate to tell a dr about this, he'll just put me on one thing then another. I know it's trial and error but I can't stand to be on downers. I'm down enough