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Im ready to stop the pain killers NOW!!!! Help please
Ok, where to start.. Actually I know where it started... My mom has terminal cancer and I took care of her, and of course she was willing to share what she had. Now I got married just recently and I want to be me again, I've done this once but relapse but this time is going to drive me crazy cause I know what's coming.. I tapered this time but its still going to hurt... My mom recently just got out of a home health care place and wants me to do it again. I have decided let a pro help her not me.. Even at the tapering off last night no sleep..but I think I could sleep if I could get the RSL thing off me... I need support and advice and all that... I have one half left, and I am stressing....was thinking about going to a doc for anxiety but that's just a cover... But then I do have a mom that has term cancer also I am a very hyper 35 year old women. Please I need support and friends that understand this....
Still feeling alone, my hubby and I have flu and I have wd to go with it lost a lot of weight... 112 down to 105... Should I go to a doc and tell them all. I just moved here so that's why I'm nervous
That is great that you got some sleep! I am sorry you are sick on top of your withdrawals that is terrible. I am happy that you were able to talk to your mom and that you are putting yourself first right now. That is very important. Try not to stress and we are here honey don't feel alone :) going out and getting stuff done will make you feel good. You are doing great keep up the good hard work!
Day 3 figured out the heating pad helps a lot, actually grab about 4 hrs of sleep, but going todo laundry, store and bank today and its very cold outside so dreading that... Haven't had a response so feeling alil alone :(
Ok well made a big big step today... Bittersweet though, told my mom I can not be her caretaker..and to my shock she wasn't mad, so we decided that we will go back to asst. living... Which I know I will have many more years with her on this path:)... Now back to w/d I have double trouble cause my hubby has flu and I have double flu and w/d the body aches are terrible.
I used a TENS Unit on my calf's. It did help more than anything else,. RLS is the absolute worst part of wd for me personally
Well, have gone threw night one!! No sleep, was suppose to help my mom with a doc appt today but that's going to be a no go... I have to stay away from that, with w/d there's no way and I know that... Ill have to call for help and that will probably be my brother. My hubby is coming down with flu, which I see trouble in. So now I'm going to get sick and w/d... But he has a z pack that's his... He tried to give me but I refused, he had to work I don't yet, but as soon as this is over I'm going to kick some butt, since I wouldn't take the zpack he's trying to get me to take methylprednisolone... Cause he thinks I started the flu... But now my hubby is sick and now I will be, that's karma I would say...
Welcome, you came to the right place. Everyone has given you great advice, so I don't have much to add except that it is time for you to focus on YOU. I think it's probably very powerful and a great step forward that you decided to seek outside help for your mom.
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. This site is filled with so many great, kind, supportive people that know exactly what you are going through. I have followed everyone's suggestions and no none has steered me the wrong way. Stay strong for you; you deserve a good life, free from chasing those pills. Good luck!!
Keep posting and let us know how you are doing. This site is filled with so many great, kind, supportive people that know exactly what you are going through. I have followed everyone's suggestions and no none has steered me the wrong way. Stay strong for you; you deserve a good life, free from chasing those pills. Good luck!!
A little trick fir restless leg: take a super hot bath with Epsom salts, then buy some icy hot gel and put on sore area (for me it was my quads) and wrap really tight with an ace bandage. Repeat as necessary. Good luck!
I want to chime in here. I can feel your STRESS from here. Over a Year ago I went c/t from 3 meds. My Dr told me that he did not want me to go back into the nursing field for many reasons. My Moms cancer came back and she lives on my property. My Dad is in a Assist living and they found cancer and gave him 6months about 2 months ago and my Father in law just died last week from cancer. I am the kind that would help anybody..BUT This ALL had to change. I got hospice for my dad and my Niece now helps my Mom. I cannot to this!!! I cannot be around any STRESSFUL and/or any DRAMA. I do not know your whole story but I pick up that you feel guilty if you are not there for her. This quilt will lead you to Anxiety which will lead you to drug seeking.
I just want you to know that it is very important that you FOCUS on YOU. The detox will take a bit of time but it will be over soon. The hard part is staying clean. If you go around ANYTHING that can cause you to trigger this has to be a BIG Change. Please let your Hub, Mom, Drs, let them ALL know how you feel. When you are getting clean and feel like craap then I would for sure stay away were you know those pills are. If and when you go see your Mom she must have those pills hidden and not break down to you just wanting "One"that one will lead you to more and more and here you go again.
My point is that we can share the things to help get you through the detox but you will have to change some of your World out here. This is were the work is..Maybe hits some meetings why you are going through detox. Maybe even talk to a Addiction counselor. YOU have alot on your plate and you need all the Support you can get. I am telling you the Gods honest truth. It became a Big Mind F**k for me to know the meds where around too! You have to tell them that your Life Depends on this and if they can not do this then you can not come around. It makes it so much harder for us that have family that are on them..We can divorce are friends and such but not family. My Prays go out to your Mom for sure. Now it is TIME for YOU to focus on You and your Life Long Recovery. May the lord hold you up..This is very hard I know.
Bless
I just want you to know that it is very important that you FOCUS on YOU. The detox will take a bit of time but it will be over soon. The hard part is staying clean. If you go around ANYTHING that can cause you to trigger this has to be a BIG Change. Please let your Hub, Mom, Drs, let them ALL know how you feel. When you are getting clean and feel like craap then I would for sure stay away were you know those pills are. If and when you go see your Mom she must have those pills hidden and not break down to you just wanting "One"that one will lead you to more and more and here you go again.
My point is that we can share the things to help get you through the detox but you will have to change some of your World out here. This is were the work is..Maybe hits some meetings why you are going through detox. Maybe even talk to a Addiction counselor. YOU have alot on your plate and you need all the Support you can get. I am telling you the Gods honest truth. It became a Big Mind F**k for me to know the meds where around too! You have to tell them that your Life Depends on this and if they can not do this then you can not come around. It makes it so much harder for us that have family that are on them..We can divorce are friends and such but not family. My Prays go out to your Mom for sure. Now it is TIME for YOU to focus on You and your Life Long Recovery. May the lord hold you up..This is very hard I know.
Bless
Just do what you can do. I think as much as we'd LOVE to rush the detox and w/d's, it ain't gonna happen. I went to CVS and got Lavender Epsom Salts. What an awesome bath does it make. They have other aromas also. They say the Epsom salt has a lot of magnesium in it which extracts a lot of the bad stuff we have in our bodies from the pills. I always feel better after I do it. Just a suggestion. And it's like 4 dollars a bag. So not expensive. I am in a lot of pain, but I try to do as much exercise as I can, like floor work and light stretching. As for your mother, do what is in your heart. I always follow my heart. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't. But at least I know I did what I thought was best for me. You have so many things going on. I wish you all the best, you can do this!!!
Yea just took a shower, lil better picked up alil around the house just trash. But do not want to do anything else... I'm just praying that the way I tapered helps..and I know my hubby going to be. ??? When I hop my hot shower at 2am in the morning.... I was so bad last night I tried to sleep on couch, but none did I get...
You really need to start being honest. WITH EVERYONE! Your not ever going to recover yourself as a person until you do.
I went through dealing with an alcoholic mother, non-loving at best, etc. then she became ill with cancer. What the Docs said could be a 3 month at best life span, she fought and lived another 7 years. Glad. YEP! She managed to fill 7 more years of love, to my two children. More love to my kids than I ever remember...for THAT, I AM GRATEFUL and forgive anything else.
Taking someone elses' meds...WOW! Get over that NOW. Follow thru with weaning off and getting off medication you have no need to be on, nor right.
Take time to plan your life: Short Term Goals 3months to 1 yr. Med Term Goals, 1+1/2 yrs-3 yrs and Long Term Goals 3-5 yrs.
Brainstorm all your thoughts, all of them, nothing is silly. Write them all down and then go through them and mark with a 1,2, or 3
Document a Chart of your goals and post it. Review it and update it. Mark your accomplishments towards each item. Even getting windows washed can be a goal if it works for you, as well as upgrading education (which NEVER ends). Take a cooking class, save for a trip, learn to sew and earn cash from that. WHATEVER WORKS FOR YOU!
Please don't be crippled by the "guilt-trips" of anyone. Love is not a control issue, it's a gift. If it comes with strings that don't stretch...talk to that person to change it or consider other options. You control your own life my dear. Not anyone or any drug.
I went through dealing with an alcoholic mother, non-loving at best, etc. then she became ill with cancer. What the Docs said could be a 3 month at best life span, she fought and lived another 7 years. Glad. YEP! She managed to fill 7 more years of love, to my two children. More love to my kids than I ever remember...for THAT, I AM GRATEFUL and forgive anything else.
Taking someone elses' meds...WOW! Get over that NOW. Follow thru with weaning off and getting off medication you have no need to be on, nor right.
Take time to plan your life: Short Term Goals 3months to 1 yr. Med Term Goals, 1+1/2 yrs-3 yrs and Long Term Goals 3-5 yrs.
Brainstorm all your thoughts, all of them, nothing is silly. Write them all down and then go through them and mark with a 1,2, or 3
Document a Chart of your goals and post it. Review it and update it. Mark your accomplishments towards each item. Even getting windows washed can be a goal if it works for you, as well as upgrading education (which NEVER ends). Take a cooking class, save for a trip, learn to sew and earn cash from that. WHATEVER WORKS FOR YOU!
Please don't be crippled by the "guilt-trips" of anyone. Love is not a control issue, it's a gift. If it comes with strings that don't stretch...talk to that person to change it or consider other options. You control your own life my dear. Not anyone or any drug.
The most powerful tool I got going for me during my detox was the hot, hot bath. I lived in the tub during the RLS phase and beyond. It will surely net you some sleep. It relaxes, and calms.
***** can't I can't afford doc or vitamins. On top of a lot of stress, cause my hubby and I made a promise that he quit his second job and I don't go back to my mom caretaker. He asked me a question I did not have a answer to.... He goes baby what are your goals in life, what do you want out of life... Your mom could go on for many years like this and do you want to look back and know that's what made you happy.... And I didn't have a answer, a goal I couldn't even tell him what makes me happy well, besides him of course but he was right its not about him or my mother. It's about me, I used to be a very strong willed person. I know that part of my life pushes me down (my mom) as I said she is a good emotion player too!! I haven't even told her yet that I'm not doing that for her anymore yet...
Hang in there you're definitely not alone. Being truthful with your Dr will be a great first step. My Dr gave me Gabapentin and Cymbalta. I'm on day six off Tramadol and while symptoms weren't completely non existent, this combo has been a life saver for me. Had two scheduled days of work and that was day one and two. I've been working the last four, long hours too. Just a thought that maybe it would work for you. I'm also taking B vitamins and LTYROSINE, along with a multivitamin and 5htp...stay strong.
I tried to grab just plain non habit form kind to help sleep pill but they make your RSL worse, well for me anyways so don't try that...
Yes, I have been a doc about anxiety and they gave me anti depressants, and like 3 different meds and tried to call me borderline bipolar. But as I said I know I'm just a hyper person and I did not fill but my anxiety which I looked up and was nothing but Benadryl pretty much, I was ???? And did not work of course. And we can not afford a doctor right now even with insurance.... So I'm just stuck, I even told them I'm not hopeless about life I just feel helpless, guess I should have never said that but after the 3 doc trying to put me on anti depressants I called it quits, I have tried them and I did not like them. I don't want to have to take a pill to be happy, now about my mom, alil stressed cause I need to find a home for her, hubby doesn't want her here cause he know what I've been threw, she knows how to play emotions.. And I fall for it every time. I see her do her meds fall asleep cause she over does and she smoked cigs too she makes burn holes everywhere too! And made a promise to my hubby I will not go back to that. And go find my own life, that she makes her own choices now again. I saw her last Friday and saw her almost do a burn hole so I can not be apart of that kind of stuff anymore.
You are so not alone. And I am here to tell you that I also have major depression and anxiety. I also have a lot of pain since I stopped taking all my pain meds. I was also very scared of w/d's. The detox stage was no fun, and I am still in the w/d stages. I started 31 days ago. Do you see a therapist? Have you been diagnosed with anxiety? Pain killers in my case numbed my anxiety very well. Only a professional can tell you if your anxiety is real. I am stopping for my husband too. I put him through hell. But first and foremost I am doing it for me. My mind was like a sifter, I have cigarette burns all over the place. Lost a lot of self-respect. All I ever thought about was pills. But then I decided I wanted my life back. And so here I am. I hope I was here to let you know you are in the right place. Others will come on and explain more about it than I can. Like what types of things you can take like hot Epsom salt baths to help with RLS. The Thomas Recipe...There is a wealth of information and people who truly care about helping you. You'll see. Good luck!!
Well, I'm not going to be the homehealth care giver.... I'm going to find a job and move on from that part of life.. I have to cause its to easy to say yes to. Plus new hubby.. But he doesn't know... So playing sick, well I am so to speak. And since I have done this once already I don't want to tell everyone all over again... I just need to figure out if my anxiety is real and that's why I went back ???? Or I was just trying to change my thoughts.... I love my hubby dearly he is the reason I'm stopping. But the w/d scare me.
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You have come to the right place. Many of us have been in your place. Does anyone know what you are going thru right now with the pills? I know how hard it is to be taking care of a parent with cancer. I went thru that with my dad. Keep talking to us~
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