stuck in this battle.

[Pat1956100]

Well it's been 12 days battling this withdrawal from 15-20 Percocets a day.  I can't seem to get any lower than 2.  So far today I am at 1.  I woke up shaking and so sick after going about 15 hours.   I went the first 2 days with nothing and then tried again and went about 34 hours with nothing but I keep caving and taking 1/2.  
My laptop's hard drive died yesterday and I am on my old desktop so I was feeling very sorry when I couldn't stay in touch.
Phoning technical support going thru withdrawals is something I wouldn't recommend to anyone.
Just letting everyone I am still here and still fighting this battle but very discouraged right now.  

[Pat1956100]

I was planning on taking 1 a day for a few days and then go to 0.  I will try going without anything again tomorrow.  I know deep down you are right and I just have to go back to cold turkey.  I have put my body through hell the last 10 days and it doesn't know what's going on.  Now  I don't have the strong mindset I had going into this because I have prolonged it for so long.
I just feel weaker every day.

[littlebit667]

I agree it is time to jump!  Prolonging it is probably stressing you out and causing anxiety.  

I kept telling myself...YOU HAVE the FLU!  It will be over and I will feel so much better.  My brain seemed to get that and settled down a little.  It is hard, but doable!  The Thomas Recipe (bottom of the page) under Health Pages will help.  I did not to the tranquilizers and had to cut back on the Ltryosine, but the rest really helped.  Imodium, Imodium, Imodium (liquid or pills if the liquid can't be found or you can't swallow it) will help.  I took double the dosage for a few days (personal choice) and it helped so much..even with the withdrawals in general and the opiate trots which sucked.  

Hydrate and eat! ((gatorade is good) Even if it is just a little every hour or so.(boost or ensure might work for both food and drink)  You have to eat something to keep your energy up as much as possible.  

If you have Restless legs..it is hit or miss what works.  Walking seemed to help me some.  Hot bath with epsom salts..a little.  I finally had to get my doctor to refill my restless legs meds (non addictive) to get some sleep.  If nothing works,your doctor might help.  Benedryl helps some with sleep issues and you will have them.

One hour at a time is all anyone can ask.  After 2 weeks it gets a little better and I started to say, One day at a time!  Your brain will do all sorts of things to get you to take a pill.  I found if I was hungry..the cravings got worse.  I would try to eat a banana, a few grapes or a few crackers to get that under control.

The hardest part comes after the detox.  Your brain will be all over the place and will try to get you back on the pills...It is having to work and not depend on the pills to help.  

Good for you.  I hope all goes well.  You have made a good start coming here....this site has helped me so much!!!  Keep posting!!!!!

[IwillDoThis]

Pat - at this point you are prolonging your misery - when you get down to one or two pills you need to just jump.  Remember every time you take any portion of a pill once you start withdrawing you are just prolonging the pain.  Make a commitment, flush the pills if you can't control yourself and ride this out.  Once you totally stop you've got 4 hard days to endure and then will start on the upswing.

I know it's hard and taking a pill seems to give you relief but it is only drawing things out.  I hope you can muster the strength to move past it.  Hang in there!