Just Please Help me, a pathetic alcoholic Mum

sittingpretty9972

Dear Freind,
I have tried so many tmes to stop drinking. I have a million reasons to stop and half a million to keep on. For me, the withdrawl symptoms are so bad that i drink every day. Even tho every day I swear to God above that I won't drink. I get the severe sweats, the shakes and the anxiety.
Even with all that, every day I swear to myself and God himself that I will only have one to ease the withdrawl. But that never happens. One leads to two and two leads to four. Eventually I'm passing out on my bed around 3 am. waking up at 7:30 with my kids, G-13, B-9, to get them off to school, then sleeping the day away until they, and my hubby come home. I know this is not normal or right. I curse myself every day for my weakness. And I hte myself for not having the will power to say "No!!! Not today, I WILL nit drink today!" I have Systemic Lupus, Degenerative Disc Disease and a long list of rediculous pain oriented ailments that are a very hard strain on my 38 yr old body. I take numerous pain pills and anti-inflammatories, none of which I am addicted to. But WHY for the love of God, WHY cant I stop this stupid obsession/love affair with alcohol??????I will wecome anyone's help and advice. I am so desperate adn nearing the end of my rope. I dont know how to go on b'cuz I want to stop drinking so badly. Pleeeeeeease pray for me. -Heidi

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rpooo

Hello Heidi,
I feel real concerned for you and your kids. I certainly understand addiction since I was an alcohlic for 20 years. I notice your 38, when I was 38 the craziest thing happened! After all those years of drinking on 03-23-10 I was diagnosed with end stage cirrhosis! Well that sure gave my a** the motivation I needed to quit! If your kids aren't motivation enough then what else do you need? Cirrhosis?

Heidi it's time for you to get this taken care of. My friends in the above posts have told you what to do. Do it and you won't regret it! Don't do it and well who knows.. Your not just doing this for yourself ya know. Your kids need you too! It's not fair to them their Mom is an alcoholic. Think about how that impacts their lives and as they grow older what they are going to have to say about it.

Make the first step, you'll feel so good about yourself that it might actually make this whole thing easier and less comlicated. I wish the very best for you and your kids.

Randy

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Omusicgame

I am in the same boat u are. I drink alot, but I dont get that much withdrawel like u do. I just get anxiety sometimes. But i realize i do it as a way of trying to say goodbye to the pain for one night, enjoy my life, and not care bout tomorrow. But tomorrow kicks our ***, and shows us how scary things are. And you know what, I know how your feeling. I hate those scary feelings and maybe just maybe if we ever stop drinking we can never see them again and get on with whats good.

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