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Just Please Help me, a pathetic alcoholic Mum
Dear Freind,
I have tried so many tmes to stop drinking. I have a million reasons to stop and half a million to keep on. For me, the withdrawl symptoms are so bad that i drink every day. Even tho every day I swear to God above that I won't drink. I get the severe sweats, the shakes and the anxiety.
Even with all that, every day I swear to myself and God himself that I will only have one to ease the withdrawl. But that never happens. One leads to two and two leads to four. Eventually I'm passing out on my bed around 3 am. waking up at 7:30 with my kids, G-13, B-9, to get them off to school, then sleeping the day away until they, and my hubby come home. I know this is not normal or right. I curse myself every day for my weakness. And I hte myself for not having the will power to say "No!!! Not today, I WILL nit drink today!" I have Systemic Lupus, Degenerative Disc Disease and a long list of rediculous pain oriented ailments that are a very hard strain on my 38 yr old body. I take numerous pain pills and anti-inflammatories, none of which I am addicted to. But WHY for the love of God, WHY cant I stop this stupid obsession/love affair with alcohol??????I will wecome anyone's help and advice. I am so desperate adn nearing the end of my rope. I dont know how to go on b'cuz I want to stop drinking so badly. Pleeeeeeease pray for me. -Heidi
I have tried so many tmes to stop drinking. I have a million reasons to stop and half a million to keep on. For me, the withdrawl symptoms are so bad that i drink every day. Even tho every day I swear to God above that I won't drink. I get the severe sweats, the shakes and the anxiety.
Even with all that, every day I swear to myself and God himself that I will only have one to ease the withdrawl. But that never happens. One leads to two and two leads to four. Eventually I'm passing out on my bed around 3 am. waking up at 7:30 with my kids, G-13, B-9, to get them off to school, then sleeping the day away until they, and my hubby come home. I know this is not normal or right. I curse myself every day for my weakness. And I hte myself for not having the will power to say "No!!! Not today, I WILL nit drink today!" I have Systemic Lupus, Degenerative Disc Disease and a long list of rediculous pain oriented ailments that are a very hard strain on my 38 yr old body. I take numerous pain pills and anti-inflammatories, none of which I am addicted to. But WHY for the love of God, WHY cant I stop this stupid obsession/love affair with alcohol??????I will wecome anyone's help and advice. I am so desperate adn nearing the end of my rope. I dont know how to go on b'cuz I want to stop drinking so badly. Pleeeeeeease pray for me. -Heidi
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It is very easy to switch up addictions here so be very careful with that. Those pills will take you down in a big hurry too. What exactly do you take and how much?
I want to congratulate you on your sober time!! That is fantastic!! You sound good and positive so keep it going! Recovery is a life changing process. It takes time so be patient. We didnt get into this mess overnight and we dont get better overnight either. Using is just a symptom of what we have going on. We bury many demons while we are using and we need to face those head on, deal with them and put them to rest. At times it is painful but not near as painful as it is to keep using. You dont have to be a prisoner to this anymore. You can do this and we are here to help~~sara
I want to congratulate you on your sober time!! That is fantastic!! You sound good and positive so keep it going! Recovery is a life changing process. It takes time so be patient. We didnt get into this mess overnight and we dont get better overnight either. Using is just a symptom of what we have going on. We bury many demons while we are using and we need to face those head on, deal with them and put them to rest. At times it is painful but not near as painful as it is to keep using. You dont have to be a prisoner to this anymore. You can do this and we are here to help~~sara
Good Morning!
You have a very good positive attitude, that will surely get you through this. One thing to be really careful about is your sosial life. You dont want to find yourself with a group of people and everyone is drinking. Only surround yourself with people that respect what you are trying to do.
How are you doing with the medications? You dont want to find yourself taking pills all the time trying to compensate for the alcohol. One problem can quickly lead to another. Hey I like the ticker you chose, it looks kind of familar. ha ha
Randy
You have a very good positive attitude, that will surely get you through this. One thing to be really careful about is your sosial life. You dont want to find yourself with a group of people and everyone is drinking. Only surround yourself with people that respect what you are trying to do.
How are you doing with the medications? You dont want to find yourself taking pills all the time trying to compensate for the alcohol. One problem can quickly lead to another. Hey I like the ticker you chose, it looks kind of familar. ha ha
Randy
Hi Again Randy!
Im feeling good, mostly slept thru the sweats and shakes today, I got up and ate and just refocused my thoughts and attitude. After hooking up with this sight I am more dtermined than ever to not let myself give in to what my Alcoholic voice is telling me. I am not powerless over this and I know that this is something I can do. Keeping a positive state of mind and knowing that I AM stronger and more powerful than my negative thoughts and depression, which really lead me to drinking to begin with. Hell of a lot of good that did me. with all of the focus and concentration and dedication that I have given this I know where my priorities are now. I selfishly lost track of that for a while.
Thanks for all of your support, your a doll. - Heidi
Im feeling good, mostly slept thru the sweats and shakes today, I got up and ate and just refocused my thoughts and attitude. After hooking up with this sight I am more dtermined than ever to not let myself give in to what my Alcoholic voice is telling me. I am not powerless over this and I know that this is something I can do. Keeping a positive state of mind and knowing that I AM stronger and more powerful than my negative thoughts and depression, which really lead me to drinking to begin with. Hell of a lot of good that did me. with all of the focus and concentration and dedication that I have given this I know where my priorities are now. I selfishly lost track of that for a while.
Thanks for all of your support, your a doll. - Heidi
Heidi, I understand being scared. Dont forget that the liver has the ability to heal it self so depending on the amount of permant damage its quite possible your liver will be fine. Abstinence is key. You will need guidence from your doctor concerning your medications. All pain pills are hard on the liver. Even includes Headache pills such as advil (ibuprophen), tylenol (acetemophen), aleve (naproxen sodium) or bayer (asprin). Your liver needs a chance to heal so with your doctors help and you stopping the alcohol thats a really good start. You need to get to your doctor right away. Also be very honest about the alcohol and any drug abuse so that he/she can better help you.
Im sorry for my poor liver too, we've been through a lot together! 40.5 hours thats great! How are you feeling?
Im sorry for my poor liver too, we've been through a lot together! 40.5 hours thats great! How are you feeling?
Randy, thank you so much for your complete honesty. I am so sorry for ur poor liver. I have had severe pain right middle side with heat radiating from my swollen side. I know it's my liver with all the booze and scripts I've been taking these past years I am so afraid to get it checked. This started on Sumday and was what really made me realiSe that I just had to quit. It's been 40.5 hrs since my last drink and I never want to touch the stuff again. U r In my thoughts. - Heidi
Heidi,
That really is terrific news! I'm very excited for you and your kids! Life really is so much better without the booze! I wouldn't ever go back even if I could. That stuff has taken enough from me and it still is. Once you start getting your life together and seeing thigs through sober eyes your self confidence in your work and everything else you do will make you feel great but most of all you can look anyone in the eys and say "I'm a great mum!"
Anytime your tempted to take a drink promise yourself you will go to a meeting before you decide. If that doesn't work come back here and i'll be glad to talk you out of it! ha ha There are very supportive people here that don't mind sharing what they have learned.
Stick with it Heidi, you can make this work!!! God bless you :)
Randy
That really is terrific news! I'm very excited for you and your kids! Life really is so much better without the booze! I wouldn't ever go back even if I could. That stuff has taken enough from me and it still is. Once you start getting your life together and seeing thigs through sober eyes your self confidence in your work and everything else you do will make you feel great but most of all you can look anyone in the eys and say "I'm a great mum!"
Anytime your tempted to take a drink promise yourself you will go to a meeting before you decide. If that doesn't work come back here and i'll be glad to talk you out of it! ha ha There are very supportive people here that don't mind sharing what they have learned.
Stick with it Heidi, you can make this work!!! God bless you :)
Randy
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I feel real concerned for you and your kids. I certainly understand addiction since I was an alcohlic for 20 years. I notice your 38, when I was 38 the craziest thing happened! After all those years of drinking on 03-23-10 I was diagnosed with end stage cirrhosis! Well that sure gave my a** the motivation I needed to quit! If your kids aren't motivation enough then what else do you need? Cirrhosis?
Heidi it's time for you to get this taken care of. My friends in the above posts have told you what to do. Do it and you won't regret it! Don't do it and well who knows.. Your not just doing this for yourself ya know. Your kids need you too! It's not fair to them their Mom is an alcoholic. Think about how that impacts their lives and as they grow older what they are going to have to say about it.
Make the first step, you'll feel so good about yourself that it might actually make this whole thing easier and less comlicated. I wish the very best for you and your kids.
Randy