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[narla]

491 days clean,New Years Eve was very hard for me,my stupid addictive brain telling me it would be ok to have a couple of shots,I've had control for this long I was reasoning that I could have a couple of shots and keep control.

Good news is I fought hard,and used my logic,I know I can't keep control so why do I try and convince myself I can. I don't think I'll go to any more New Year Eve parties,it is just too hard.And it's not worth the risk.

Will this ever get easier?

[lifewithoutcoke]

Congrats on staying strong! You've come so far, you are such an inspiration to a lot of us here:) Happy New Year (and no guilt about those that were hungover, lol. They knew what they were doing!!)

[dominosarah]

There's our girl!!!

[narla]

Thanks everyone,
Sara I am still suffering with the sciatica,but I have been true to myself and I am only taking the prescribed amount when it's really needed,and I agree I was starting to think if I'm having to take the codeine then a bit of alcohol wouldn't hurt LOL
what was I thinking,but I didn't have any alcohol,and I felt really good the next day because I didn't.Everyone else was hungover and feeling sick and I actually laughed,I'm bad,but it made me feel soooooo much better to see them suffering,I'm really bad  LOL

I am stronger again after dealing with such temptation,I will never take that first drink,I know what it would lead to,

Thank You everyone for the support,
Just writing about how I was feeling at the time helps

Big Hugs to all  Denise

[rod44]

Happy New Year Narla, you stayed strong and that is the important thing, you learned a valuable lesson, that demon is always lurking ready to drag you in.
It dose get better over time but for now be grateful that you did not give in. It is indeed a new day, a new day sober.


Ray  

[sassysissy244]

You made it. I was home and thought it was difficult, I am too young in my sobriety to even think of how difficult it would be at a party. You did It there is hope. Happy new years to all.

[gizzy32]

I am so happy you stayed strong narla. I just wanted to congratulate you on almost 500 days sober now, that is amazing. Happy New Year and keep working it, one day at a time:) Keep getting support and talking, using is not an option

[ibizan]

i agree w/sara....was unwise to go to a WET NYE party!well 2 days another day girl....and u didn't succumb to the BEAST!:)

[dominosarah]

Yep it will get easier.  You gotta stay out of those situations my friend.  You have been dealing with pain from sciatica also and that has worn your down.  Gotta keep that guard up.  You have no control, period.  Now what are you going to do to get you out of this funk you are in?  Are you still taking the codeine?

I am proud of you for getting thru this but i dont like where your head is at right now.  It concerns me.  Keep talking with us narla~~~~hugs to you girl        sara