I think you have more going on than anxiety and may need a forum more equipt to deal with your issue.
Okay, so I went to the doctor....she told me that meds would help me feel better....I told her I didnt want the woman in my head to leave. and she said she put me on a low dose so she wouldnt leave me! And I was afraid to take them after what the woman in my head said, so I never took em! And I went back, showed her a suicide picture, and she said its bad....and how about we put you on just the Celebrex....it's not going to take her away! So if JUST the Celebrex isnt going to take her away, then the Abilify would have! Right?
Your post is a little confusing. Why do you think your doctor is lying?? A little more background might be helpful. :)