It's not that I believe they're going to hurt me. I know that they won't.
They're just so sudden, and strong, that when I relax, it catches me by surprise, when I least expect it.
It's like someone walking along, and then out of nowhere, someone jumps out from around the corner.
Yeah, you could get used to that, but not if it keeps happening when you're not expecting it. You're walking and walking and it doesn't happen for a while, so you start to relax and continue your walk, and then BAM! Someone else jumps out from around another corner and it startles you again because you weren't expecting it.
I feel like, if I'm not on high guard all the time, then they're gonna be worse at scaring me. Once I'm startled, it takes quite a bit of time for me to calm back down again, and I become reluctant to do so if I'm just gonna be startled again.
And it's even worse because the intensity is never constant. Sometimes, I get the soft ones, and I'm like, "That wasn't so bad." and then out of nowhere, BAM! The strong ones hit.
That's what drives me crazy about them.
The more you can relax during these the better. You don't have to feel anxious to be anxious. It may still be your anxiety that creates this and then your anxiety builds even more. You've survived so many of these that you now know they are not going to hurt you, so try to just go with them and not get upset and see what happens.
As of now, the palpitations are the cause.
I'm over just about every other fear I'd had that caused this, death, cardiac problems, etc.
It's strictly about the palpitations now, which anxiety brought on, and now they themselves give me the anxiety.
Anxiety can be very complex, and it's best to work on what is causing them than to try and figure it all out. It often makes no sense and can be very frustrationg...as you know. Work on the cause, and go from there.
These things are so confusing, and it's hard to find a trigger.
When I'm walking around or in constant movement, I either don't get them, or they're very faint.
When I first wake up in the morning, I don't get any for like 30 minutes, then they lightly start to come on, but if I don't eat anything, they're not that bad, and I can deal with them,
But when I get out of bed, run downstairs, eat something, then go back up to my room and try to watch TV or something, they're stronger than ever.
O_O
Vent away, we all understand and care. Please know there is help and you can feel better. Most of us have been where you are, and with professional help we are living fuller, happier lives. Stay strong, you're going to be fine.