Oh, I know how you feel..I have been dealing with this for 14 years and have not tried EVER to commit suicide....You are in the depths of depression...a feeling of hopeless and helplessness....Anxiety and depression often go hand and hand. I would suggest to go back to your doctor and possibly changing your meds. I also suggest to make sure you have counseling also. Meds will help mask the symptoms, but you have to try to get into your psyche and change the way of your thinking...It is all in your thinking process. I am on meds too and still struggle at times with daily activities. I just try to work through them, knowing it WILL get better. Best to you.
One of the most reported fears of a person with anxiety is the fear of loosing it. "second after fear of major illness"
I had that real bad at first when my GAD flourished.
I told my wife to keep watching me, and make sure I didnt do anything stupid.
But if you ever feel like you are to that level of mind of suicide, please seek help ASAP.
Mental disorders can become very frustrating, and make us wanna "give up" but you always have to remember, that God only gives us as much as what we can handle.
And you have to find peace within the Chaos.