Anxiety to ruin my relationship?

[Mimi17267]

My boyfriend and I have been together since we were in 9th grade (5 years this year). We've had our ups and downs, but have always pulled through. I believe that our love is true.

I am starting to fear that my anxiety might tear us apart. I have a lot of loved ones in my life and have had depression and still have anxiety issues. I'm not sure where to begin so I will use last night as an example.  

My boyfriend stayed the weekend and I knew that he was to leave, but I always feel an uneasiness. About an hour before he leaves, I began to think about my love for him and how I didn't think I could live without him. It sometimes brings me to tears. We sometimes fight about my inability to be alone. I want this to end. I fear about the day that something awful happens to him and can't stand it when he leaves my house. After some crying and not being able to sleep, I will sometimes realize how ridiculous I was being and apologize to him, but...what is wrong with me?

Thank you so much in advance,

[Mimi17267]

I used to be in counseling when I was 13, but I wouldn't mind seeing one now. That would be quite helpful.

I was prescribed Xanax last year and take it if the need arises which is not very often.

Thank you! =]

[remar]

It's your anxiety making you feel this way. Many of us that have anxiety have what we call a safe person. Mine is my husband. We feel more secure when we have our safe person with us.
Are you in counseling? If not, I think that would be a great place to start. There's also medication to help with your anxiety and depression.  Remar