Any sadness or talk about death.

[Cntbreal]

I am so into my own mind it is very scary. So as in all my other post I am new to anxiety. And it has been hard for me in these past couple of months trying to understand anxiety and my mind and body. But this thing now is that any talk our seeing anything dealing with any sadness or death I find myself relating it to myself. Like for instance these two most resent things are me and my fiance were taking about me being woke when he get off work and he said to me you gonna nds dead to the world when I get home I instantly thought about being dead when he came home. Even though I knew he ment in a deep sleep it made me go into this thinking about being dead and I cried about it and had a panic attack. Next was today the music community lost one of the greatest singers either houston and I had phone calls after phone calls from friends and family wanting to talk about it. True enough I loved whitney and her music and movies but I found myself saying omg am I next?  I didn't want to talk about it I tried to look it up on the net as to how she passed but couldn't read it because I felt myself going into a panic. I can't listen to sad very slow music can't talk about sad or bad things with anyone because I get shaky and scared like whatever it is is gonna happen to me. I don't know if this is anxiety or am I on the verge of going crazy? Had anyone else dealt with this? I know this may find crazy but I'm am in a sad mod with all this. I feel alone I try to explain this to my fiance along with all my other symptoms but of course because he himself is not dealing with it its hard for him to understand. Please help.

[Cntbreal]

Hello hun. How are you? You know what? I do know this and i know what people have going on with them is what could change your life. But its hard as you may know having anxiety you get in your own head and its hard to get out. But i now have a great frind on here that is such a big help. Gives me hope that i can beat this. I am trying to fight this everyday and its hard as heck but im gonna fight til its gone and im better. Hope can and will do the same.

Hope you and everyone else have a better day today then yesterday
Thanks for responding.
                         Cntbreal.

[Cntbreal]

Oh trust me God heard you and sometimes hun to be honest. Crying has helped me. It gets that feeling out of you. I wish you could not let this consume you being in your room for 6 days is not gonna help. Like you said you are getting bord and you have to try to get up and get out. I know its hard but you should just try to. Find a hobbie that makes you happy and see if that helps. You could message me if you like im not on here all the time but enough to chat if you need to. I really do hope you fight this it took me a while to get out my bed and come out my room and you could too hun. It just will have to be because you want to.

Im here if you need to talk. Cntbreal. Please just try. and dont forget that crying sometimes helps to.

[nlk259949]

Hi! Wow, I am so glad you posted this, because I was experiencing the exact same thing today with reading about Whitney!I thought, since she died, than I was going to probably die. I have has extreme anxiety since 7th grade, (I am now 22), and have finally started to find answers. I find with things like death, to realize that just because it happened to her, does not mean it will happen to you. She died from doing too much cocaine, and who knows what else, so you don't have to worry about the same happening to you. Just try to stay healthy, and you will be fine =). Try to stop the thoughts and focus on something happy. I usually try to watch a movie that makes me happy, or a show that makes me happy, to get my mind off of death--otherwise it consumes me. Sorry you are experiencing this, it *****. Here is a website that might also help you with the anxiety--
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[Elle316]

Went to ENT he said I don't have problem in my ears. I'm taking Serc for dizziness, but its weird I'm still dizzy,:( I might do a blood sugar test. Right now I feel dizzy and shaky. :( I wanna cry out loud! Been in my room for 6 days.I'm bored and everything.
I'm always put in my mind that 'Lord I can do this' I hope God would hear me. 'Cause I want to be happy again...xx

[Elle316]

Went to ENT he said I don't have problem in my ears. I'm taking Serc for dizziness, but its weird I'm still dizzy,:( I might do a blood sugar test. Right now I feel dizzy and shaky. :( I wanna cry out loud! Been in my room for 6 days.I'm bored and everything.
I'm always put in my mind that 'Lord I can do this' I hope God would hear me. 'Cause I want to be happy again...xx

[Cntbreal]

Hello hun, im sorry to hear about your struggle with this. I am in a state now where i am trying to fix this i too want my life back but we have to make sure we work at it and its gonna be hard but it i have seen and heard can be done. Are you on any meds? And also have you seen any other Drs, like behavorial? They are helping me now. And it is in our heads and it makes it come on to physical symptoms. Have you been checked for other things or are you just trying to work out the anxiety? This anxiety is very hard to deal with and you have to want to make it better if not we will stay like this and we wont get better.. I hope you get better hun and if you ever want to talk im here..