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A chat would be appreciated appreciated
I will post what i have posted in the hiv and std forum and been told no risk.
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by whathaveigot
, 48 minutesI have asked this in the hiv forum before and been told that i am barking up the wrong tree so thought i would ask here. Basically a couple of Christmases ago i engaged in oral sex with a man, i am a man, there was no ejaculate. 4 days later my arms were tingling a lot and at 10 days i was bed bound for a week with diarrhea and swollen glands, my skin went spotty and puffy and i had a rash on my arms including some weird bubble inside my elbow. I tested negative for mono. After i started feeling better, maybe 3 weeks i was sat and my face went totally purple out of nowhere, then never again. Since then i have always had some sort of discomfort in my groin and under arms but no swelling which is odd. My face just seems more pink than it used to be. Any ideas would be appreciated. To me it sounds like hiv but apparently that isn't a possibility.
So anyway I have now been told on numerous occasions no risk. I have asked a gp i know and e said the same. Now i feel like i am losing my grip on reality. In the last year i have lost a very good job and my partner and to be honest i have a real pronlem developing with alcohol. I habeas gained about 30lbs and my confidence is completely destroyed, have pushed everyone away aswell. Like i say a chat would be great, have contemplated doing something stupid a lot recently but fortunately i am too scared to do it.
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by whathaveigot
, 48 minutesI have asked this in the hiv forum before and been told that i am barking up the wrong tree so thought i would ask here. Basically a couple of Christmases ago i engaged in oral sex with a man, i am a man, there was no ejaculate. 4 days later my arms were tingling a lot and at 10 days i was bed bound for a week with diarrhea and swollen glands, my skin went spotty and puffy and i had a rash on my arms including some weird bubble inside my elbow. I tested negative for mono. After i started feeling better, maybe 3 weeks i was sat and my face went totally purple out of nowhere, then never again. Since then i have always had some sort of discomfort in my groin and under arms but no swelling which is odd. My face just seems more pink than it used to be. Any ideas would be appreciated. To me it sounds like hiv but apparently that isn't a possibility.
So anyway I have now been told on numerous occasions no risk. I have asked a gp i know and e said the same. Now i feel like i am losing my grip on reality. In the last year i have lost a very good job and my partner and to be honest i have a real pronlem developing with alcohol. I habeas gained about 30lbs and my confidence is completely destroyed, have pushed everyone away aswell. Like i say a chat would be great, have contemplated doing something stupid a lot recently but fortunately i am too scared to do it.
God isn't punishing you, YOU are punishing you. You sound like you're self medicating away depression and anxiety with alcohol. That will lead you nowhere good.
We have a great Alcoholism community, and Addiction forum, you should check them out.
We have a great Alcoholism community, and Addiction forum, you should check them out.
Thank you for your responses, i wasn't trying.to be rude.i was seeking attention. Alcohol seems to be all i have right now. I was well qualified, had a nice partner for 7 years, i used to have a really nice body and work out a lot and had a lot of friends. I started drinking more when my mother died and made some odd decisions and since then my life seems to have completely been destroyed. I am not even in any way gay yet i made a crazy mistake and it seems like ever since God has been hell bent on punishing me. Having said that all i have done is punished myself and now due to my being so miserabley girl has left me and i am in a spiral of self destruction. The doctor i saw was a friend and he said it would be impossible to catch hiv from oral sex yet my head is telling me otherwise. I am just so broken and want my old life, body and mind back yet it seems to be getting further and further from my grasp. I just want to spend a waking day sober and full of hope instead of trying to silence my demons with alcohol and self loathing.
Your problem isn't HIV. You need to focus on addressing your drinking problem, then your anxiety. You cannot address anything if you're abusing alcohol, that only fuels the fire. That will make anxiety and depression 100 times worse. Start there.
As for HIV, you've been told correctly, you don't have an HIV concern.
As for HIV, you've been told correctly, you don't have an HIV concern.
Not everyone is on this site 24 hrs a day. You just posted 3 hrs ago. Give it time. If you don't get any responses maybe people just don't know how to help you.
I am not a dr so keep that in mind. This happened 2 Christmases ago. It sounds like you coincidently caught a virus at the same to. At this point maybe you should look into anxiety. I know your discomfort is real. Sometimes we can have real pain from anxiety or depression. Maybe whatever you had ran it's course. Did you go to an infectious disease dr or a regular. Since your still have discomport, ask you PCP to recommend somewhere for you to go. This sounds like you are letting this run your life. Loss of partner, job, weight and know alcohol. I can tell you that alcohol will lead you to a dead end path. Being destructive with your body is not going to help you. You won't find your answers at the bottom of a bottle. Not taking care of yourself and gaing the weight is just unhealthy.
I can hear that your emotionally hurting and I would strongly suggest you seek out a therapist. I think this will really help you. I hope you find the right kind of specialist dr that can give you some answers.
I am not a dr so keep that in mind. This happened 2 Christmases ago. It sounds like you coincidently caught a virus at the same to. At this point maybe you should look into anxiety. I know your discomfort is real. Sometimes we can have real pain from anxiety or depression. Maybe whatever you had ran it's course. Did you go to an infectious disease dr or a regular. Since your still have discomport, ask you PCP to recommend somewhere for you to go. This sounds like you are letting this run your life. Loss of partner, job, weight and know alcohol. I can tell you that alcohol will lead you to a dead end path. Being destructive with your body is not going to help you. You won't find your answers at the bottom of a bottle. Not taking care of yourself and gaing the weight is just unhealthy.
I can hear that your emotionally hurting and I would strongly suggest you seek out a therapist. I think this will really help you. I hope you find the right kind of specialist dr that can give you some answers.
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