Anxiety's certainly something that wrecks many lives. Unless you get professional help it will be extremely hard to cope with it.Get help now, no need to suffer more than is avoidable. No one likes to be 'medicated', but drugs do have a good role to play, along with other therapies. Usually in combination.Find out what's on offer.Consider if you prefer to continue to suffer the anxiety or your fear of medication. I wish you luck, ask for help & try to be patient while the meds click in. Keep your Doc/Psych up to date with any problems you experience. Best wishes.
You didn't give your medication time to help you. It takes 4-6 weeks for it to reach a therapeutic level in your system, and for you to feel better. You are having panic attacks and these often occur in open spaces where we may feel "trapped" and can lead to agoraphobia where you won't want to leave your house. These are brought on by anxiety, and sometimes have an underlying cause. It is normally something traumatic that has happened in your past that you either have forgotten or never really dealt with at the time. Therapy can help you to discover what this is and cope with it so you can move on. Panic attacks are a normal response coming at the wrong time. When we are in danger our brain senses our "fight or flight mode" which sends extra adrenaline into our system. But since we are not in danger, this adrenaline has nothing to work on and it results in a panic attack. Nothing bad will happen to you, it just scares the daylights out of us, and can make us avoid places that set this off. Giving the adrenaline something to work on during a panic attack helps, like exercise and distracting our mind, but not many can overcome this without help. I would see a psychiatrist about this so that the two of you can decide what course of treatment would be best for you.....therapy, and/or medication. You're not alone in this, it's very common and there is help. It won't get better without help, so don't put this off, I know you want to be able to get out with your daughter and enjoy life. I wish you all the best, and take care.