anxiety causes by hiv scare

[purpleplum28]

i am a woman on february 26, 2012 i had unprotected sex with a male. he was a lot bigger than i was ever used to to and i was drunk. i know who he is which scares me because he smoke pot all the time and his ex girl friend used to cheat on him all the time. after this i was a little worried about him having hiv but i told myself no there's no way he has this. on night i was drinking again and we made out for a while i touched his penis and i had a cut on my hand. he had pre ejaculation that got on my hand but i don't think it got on the had with the 2 day old cut can't be sure. sometimes when i brush my teeth i have blood in my spit. this was the only two encounters i have had with him. about a week later my stool turned yellow and i started to freak out. i watched my body gradually get red from my neck to my legs. expecially after i get out of the shower. i have had red patches on my abdomen area that come and go. my temp is normal but at certain times in the month it sometimes rises to 99.1 to 99.9. my mouth became very dry for about 2 1/2 months after 2 weeks of unprotected sex. i have gotten may one i believe to be a cold sore 3 time which was gone the next day. i had on and off direah for a while and now lately my stool had been green.  i became hot all the time and my skin felt like i had a sun burn. i get numbness and tingling in my hands sometimes. and burning sensation on my skin. i don't have an appetite and get bad integestion sometimes and nausea. i have had this neck pain that comes and goes don't know if my nodes are causing this or not. i went through a depression for a while which had gotten a little better. i do get headaches and my body trembles from the time i wake up. i have a couple of bumps on the back of my throat which hurt sometimes can't remember if i had this before the encounter or not. the last two day i have had direah again and my stool is green. now to the test i've had. 26 day after possible exposer i had a rna pcr through a private testing center. at 45 days i had a dna pcr through a private testing center. at 79 days i had a pcr through my doctor. at 62 day i had a pint of blood drawn through the blood bank. at 93 days i had a rapid. at 107 days i had a combo assay. at 130 days i had a rapid. in june i had 2 complete blood counts. i had thyroid test. horomone test. sed rate test. hepitits test. 2 syphillis test. and was checked for all stds except herpes. i am at 5 months right now waiting for the 6 months test at the beginning of september. i am scared i will give this to my 10 year old son because he is always getting cuts on him. after a deep cut he had a sore throat and a lot of bumps came out on the back of his throat this has scared the crap out of me. what if i do have if and some how i have infected him. can anyone give me some feed back on all this. if i am positive i just want to know so i can do what i have to do to get the help i need and to stay healthy. is my son at risk

[nursegirl6572]

We see HIV related anxiety ALL the time.

For one, the "cut" situation was not a risk.  HIV cannot remain active outside of the body, therefore any exposure you would have to fluids outisde of unprotected vaginal or anal sex, would not be a concern.

You recognized that you had a risk with the unprotected sex, and then proceeded to WAY over test.  Your tests are 100% conclusive, you do NOT have HIV.  NOTHING will affect production of antibodies for you, not getting blood drawn, donating blood, medications, nothing.  You can be completely confident in your negative results.

That being said...I'm glad to see that you are addressing the anxiety with a professional.  That's important. When a level of anxiety becomes disproportionate to the "worry", then it's time to get help.

You, along with most people, have an overinflated view of HIV.  HIV is not like a cold.  It literally requires unprotected sex, or sharing IV drug works to get it.  Sexually speaking, in the heterosexual population, HIV is a pretty minute concern, as MOST people are not infected.  Of course, that isn't to say you shouldn't be insisting on condoms for any and every episode of vaginal or anal sex, because you should be.  I'm just trying to explain that most likely, this guy isn't even infected.  Even his GF cheating on him doesn't raise his risk factor significantly.  Also, there would be NO way someone living in the same house as an infected person (ie, the worry about your son)....could become infected, again, unless they were having sex with the infected person, or sharing IV drugs/works.

At this point, you need to put the idea of HIV behind you, and start focusing your energy on the anxiety treatment.  One more time...you do NOT have HIV, you do NOT need more testing (I actually advise against testnig again....)...you have no worries in regards to HIV.  ALL of the "symptoms" you described have nothing to do with HIV, more likely they were related to anxiety, or some common, garden-variety infection (colds, etc).

Good luck!

[purpleplum28]

i forgot to say that all my test have come back negative

[purpleplum28]

i forgot to ask because i have been getting this much blood out of my body so often and my body always having to make new cells. can this slow down the process of antibodies show up within the 3 months mark or could i have been stressing so much that i lowered my immune system to slow down antibody production. also the doctor has put me on prozac which was making me sick so i stopped taking that and now i'm on paxil 5 days now and i have been taking zanax for about 4 months now