I believe I have some form of OCD?

[ohmee]

Hey all maybe you can shed some light on this situation, or share some experiences with me?

My sibling told me he was gay I believe a year ago and ever since then I've been terrified if I was a lesbian or not..

I begin to rethink my childhood, to the point where i ponder for hours, I try to remember how I felt around guys.

I remember only liking guys ... i remember having crushes, swooning over celebrity men, and falling in love.

However, after my brother came out I feel like my throat is closing in all the time (stress?) and my chest is very heavy.

I cannot do anything without constantly rethinking if I found that girl attractive, if that boy gave me the butterflies, etc...

With my boyfriend I was so happy and in love. Now whenever we have sex I think "am I enjoying this?" I always feel like i'm cheating myself.

Whereas I knew before this all happened I would just enjoy my relationship with no worries!!

So what do you think it is?

[ohmee]

Yeah it all started last year when he came out then t got my mind racing and sometimes it stops and then sometimes it comes back full force, I try to test myself and see if I would prefer a same sex relationship but it doesnt give me a good feeling it gives me this bad nerve wrecking feeling. But with everything I do these bad thoughts cloud my head.

[smjmekg]

I think you may be overreacting to your sibling coming out. The lump in your throat and chest feeling heavy sounds like anxiety, probably caused by you stressing over your sexuality. It's normal for some people to question themselves, but if you were happy and content before this news from your sibling you have to ask yourself~~~is this really how I feel or am I reacting to him/her? I also think it's normal to find the opposite sex attractive. I can look at a woman and think "she's pretty"...but I don't think of females in a sexual way...so that could be part of what you're going through. Just because your sibling is gay doesn't mean that you are. If you feel that you need to experiment, that is up to you, but I don't think you are a lesbian, especially since this came after your sibling came out. Like I said, it's normal for some people to question their sexuality, you have to be sure it's because of how you feel and not because of your sibling. I hope that helped...you can message me if you want to talk about it more.