Not able to calm

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I was tired before cause I was busy doing my wife's present for her birthday but after I layed down in bed than my throat started to burn but I forget about throwing early before after dinner which I had fish green beans and rice m, my grandmother in law made but I throw up that for about 10 mins and I don't get sick that much at all just couldn't keep the food down at the time cause my heart was beating really fast. My heart usually does always beat fast at night and not able to sleep either til one or three in the morning . Iim on medication for panic attacks which is Xanax 0.5 three times a day as needed for panic attacks but this is my biggest down fall I don't take it as it says on the bottle cause I have a bad experience one time long ago with a pill, I only take the Xanax in the morning and that's it. My doctor knows the deal about the pills for me but I really try my fullest to push myself to take another one but can't take. When I take the pill in the morning it sometimes helps for me in the morning and afternoon but it's the night which is the hardest to take  I don't know why cause I took it no problem in the morning but night No luck. I always tho have them near me when I sleep cause it's relaxing at times but if anyone on here has had fear before on taking pills like me and how u take it