HIV test result anxiety

[littleworriedsick]

Ok, here is my situation. I am a 27/female. I had unprotected sex with a friend of a friend on the last weekend of jan and then on Feb 17th. I know, stupid. It was with the same person. I had broken up with my bf of five years ago in Nov of last year and my head obviously not on straight. Not making excuses, I was an idiot.

I immediately went crazy and started thinking about diseases. I asked this guy about it, because I was concerned. He said he was tested about a year ago when he found out his ex gf was pregnant. I didn't believe him,obviously. I got tested for stds and had an hiv test at 6 weeks. Everything negative. I knew I had to be tested again at 3 months to be sure. I couldn't wait and got tested again at 9 weeks. Negative. I waited until I hit the 12th week mark and got tested again: negative.

I have a new bf that I have been dating for a little while and I suggested we get tested together. He happily agreed. We were both tested (me for the 4th time and at the end of 13 weeks) the result for both of us: negative. I have had several people on several boards: medhelp, ************ and webmd say that 13 weeks (3 mos) is conclusive. I even paid for advice in the hiv forum from Dr. HHH who assured me that any test after 8 weeks is conclusive. Why, oh why do I still feel this anxiety then??? I wake up in the morning panicking.

[littleworriedsick]

Thank you nursegirl. I am actually doing that. I am seeing a counselor and will be on medication soon. It just isn't very fun in the meantime. :(

[nursegirl6572]

You are exhibiting severe anxiety and obsessive like thoughts related to this, which is common after an HIV scare/concern.

Your best bet is to address the anxiety with a professional.  Obviously, tests aren't making you feel better, you already have several negatives, plus the reassuring words of HIV experts, and that was not enough to quell the anxiety.

Make yourself an appt with your doc and ask for a referral to a mental health provider.

[littleworriedsick]

And now my brain just doubts it all. What if the lady told me I was positive and I forgot? What if she accidently filled out the wrong paper saying I was negative...it has to stop. I told my bf everything about this situation and he said I m fine and to stop worrying.....

[littleworriedsick]

Ok, sorry. I wasn't finished. I even went so far as to talk to the guy I had sex with yesterday. I haven't talked to the guy in three months. He assured me he is clean, but wasn't receptive to taking a test for me. People would tell me that it doesn't matter what his status is....it matters what mine is. I am just having so much anxiety over this. I don't know what to do :(