Health anxiety or reason for concern?

[stressed73]

I have been under tremendous stress lately. The past year, my grandmother that raised me had terminal cancer and fought that for 8 months, watching her die slowly. She passed in April. Found out my husband was cheating and now going through divorce. My children have moved out due to the issues in my marriage (2nd marriage and not their father). Recently found out that the man I thought was my father wasn't and my "real" dad showed up and now I have a whole other side of my family (good stress).... Lately I've been stressing and starting to obsess about my health. Not really bad but worrying no doubt. This past Sunday night, my kitten bit my leg while playing with my pants leg. It was a deep puncture wound. My kitten had not had shots. I cleaned it of course with alcohol. Saw my dr the next day and got antibiotics. Took my kitten to the vet for shots the same day. Vet said she looked healthy. She received distemper but since she was only 3 months old, she has to wait for rabies shot for another month. Tuesday I ran low-grade temp. Chalked that up to maybe bacteria. Wednesday my cat was completely lethargic. Took her back to the vet and she had post- vaccine lethargy. I was terrified since reading about rabies online!! I went to the er and requested the rabies vaccine but they wouldn't give it to me. I was told to watch my kitten for 10 days. They did give me tetanus though. Thursday, the cat is back to normal. Apparently the mess she got for the post-vaccine illness worked. She's fine. I have a temp as I was told I would probably have from the tetanus shot. Low-grade and muscle aches. So, I'm feeling better about the possibility of the kitten having rabies. She still seems healthy. I've had her for 6 wks. She eats and drinks well and she seems to be fine. Yesterday I let her out on the porch with me for a few minutes and kept my eyes on her. She rarely gets off the porch. I received a text and looked away for a minute. As I was looking at my phone, I heard a flutter, like possibly something flying off. My cat continued playing in the corner of the porch. With my new rabies phobia... Instead of thinking the flutter was the leaves of my plant she was playing with, I'm scaring myself it was a bat flying off! Ridiculous I know. Full sunlight porch, daytime! I bring my cat in and look her over for bites. Didn't see any. Let her go! (I'm sure she hates this obsession as much as I do!) I know I got up and washed my hands. A few minutes later, I had something in my mouth and stuck my finger in my mouth to get it out. Now, I'm like what if the "bat" did or didn't bite my kitten but got saliva on his back and then I put my finger in my mouth ( mucous membrane)!!! I've even convinced myself that I may not have washed my hands after checking my cat!!!! Uggggghhhh!!! I know all this sounds crazy! Trust me!!! But is it obvious I'm experiencing health anxiety/ phobia? How should I control it???

[anxiety860]

Or not tendon but muscle. I honestly forgot already. One of te two. Just wanted to clear that up!

[anxiety860]

Health anxiety has made me sound "crazy" many times! Sometimes my mom just laughs when I'm explaining a story and it actually makes me feel better cause shes laughing because its so ridiculous.  So I start to see how it is. Just today I felt under my armpit thought a felt a bump, guess what it was a tendon I have them in both armpits we all do. Anyways, 99.9% your kitten does not have rabies. You got antibiotics, and no way a bat was out in full sun by your porch. I live in an area with bats and I've only seen them when it was dark or very very close to dark. You went to the doctor and get and everything has checked out fine. Focus on the good. No the "what it's" because what it's are endless and pointless. You are fine and not alone. I also have health anxiety. It comes and goes. When it's here it's awful. I know how you feel trust me. But you are fine. Focus on the good