Help! Daily anxiety attaks and depresion

[papuca]

Hi, I'm a 28 years old female....recently divorced,well, separated.
I had my first panick attack at age 25, but after a year all simptoms stoped, until this August.
Please understand, that even if I'm going through a divorce, my life is nice, I should be happy!! I have the best boyfriend somebody could ever ask for, the support of my family and a great job. Instead of beeing happy, here I am
having panick attacks and depresion.....
By panick attack I mean, I start to feel soooo restless, nervous, I can't find my place, a feeling of burning comes up in my head....and the feeling that I fear most is that I feel like biting my tongue or even I have a feeling that I should hurt my eyes.....
I also can not meet new people lately... I get really panicked when it gets to meeting new people.... I get a feeling like I'm all burning up inside and I can't act normal. That's why I didn't meet ANY of my boyfriend's friends or familly.... and I'm runing out of escuses and reasons for this....
I didn't talk to anybody about this and I feel that I'm going crazy... am I going crazy? I don't want to end up in a mental hospital... I am in love and should be happy ....please help.............

[papuca]

thank you! a big thank you to everybody! It's so good to see that I'm not the only one who is going through this.... thank you for your support!

[haremare1612]

hi i am a 26 yr old girl married for 4 yrs and 2 girls one i just gave birth to 2 mths ago! i should also be very happy but i am not i suffer with panic attacks to a point were i feel i cant breath properly and i feekl like i am going to have a heart attack because of pain in centre of my chest and palpatations.nearly 8 yrs ago my boyfriend was stabbed and i saw it all and i thought after a couple of months i was fine but i was not i was ignoring my grief, we had a little girl together and she kept me going but i was suffering from post traumatic stress like a delayed depresion i took meds and seeked counselling and got better meet a great guy who i love very much. but about 2 yrs ago we had an arguement where he got agressive in an arguement but towards the wall not to me and after that night i havent been the same since i think i got such a fright because of witnessin the murder earlier it affected me. since then i suffer with chest pain and pains all in my left shoulder breast and side. palpatations and breathin probs and headaches. i had ct scan and ekg and all is fine all docs say i am suffering with anxiety but something tells me they r missin something!! but i am just trying to make best out of bad thing but i know how u feel its hard and people dont believe us half the time they think shake it off its in your head!!if it wasnt for my husband and kids and family id b lost!

chin up girl
louise

[moodykitty]

Hello dear... you're not alone. I used to have horrible panic attacks and feelings just like what you're describing. Sometimes like another forum poster said, our brains go on overload and its hard to think about anything else.  One reason it could be bothering you so is because its hard to talk about.  

I know this is hard but you might want to mention it to your boyfriend - that that's the reason why you've been afraid to do things like meet his parents.  I was terrified to mention it to my (now) husband, but it has made a huge difference, like taking a weight off my chest. Even though he has never had anxiety or panic attacks, he still understands that it's a very real issue for me, and I think your boyfriend will feel the same way too.

[lostsoul2]

Divorce is never anything to take lightly.  I have had issues with panic attacks and high anxiety gor a long time.  My wife recently had a hysterectomy at 30 years old and it's been hard on her.  But the fights we have been having lately have left me a wreck inside.  We have talked about divorce and it has consumed me.  My nerves have not stopped firing.  A lot of muscles in my chest and abdomen twitch and spasm all day long.  I can't concentrate, I don't feel "right," I am very depressed.  I am already taking Klonipin daily, but the anxiety never goes away!!!  Seek help if you need to.  Once the nerves get frayed it's hard to get them under control again.  Good luck.

[toejam_muncher]

you may have a great life, but your brain may be on over-load. you are not always aware of stress until it nails you with a round of anxiety/panic. i would focus on the stresses in your life and try to mentally resolve or accept them. divorce is never as simple as just an ending to a marriage...your brain has to process that and doing so can throw you off track.

that's just my opinion.

[rikredrum]

your not going mental hun, its very easy to think about so many things that you end up feeling like your talking to yourself, your brain is always thinking but normally its in the sub consince, when you get in a panicy state your brain can work over time an then you start to develope ocds, obsessing about things an they become bigger an bigger,.
face your fears, just tell yourself your going to risk it an see what happens, your in control of your self, dont forget that.

hope this is handy, happy to talk if you want more of a chat

rich x