Hey all maybe you can shed some light on this situation, or share some experiences with me?
My sibling told me he was gay I believe a year ago and ever since then I've been terrified if I was a lesbian or not..
I begin to rethink my childhood, to the point where i ponder for hours, I try to remember how I felt around guys.
I remember only liking guys ... i remember having crushes, swooning over celebrity men, and falling in love.
However, after my brother came out I feel like my throat is closing in all the time (stress?) and my chest is very heavy.
I cannot do anything without constantly rethinking if I found that girl attractive, if that boy gave me the butterflies, etc...
With my boyfriend I was so happy and in love. Now whenever we have sex I think "am I enjoying this?" I always feel like i'm cheating myself.
Whereas I knew before this all happened I would just enjoy my relationship with no worries!!
So what do you think it is?