358304 tn?1409709492

I weeped today.... just weeped...

I'm not trying to preach or anything... but today helped me so much.
I went to my brothers house on lunch break... and he knows I've been struggling with anxiety/fear really bad the past few months.

He told me today that he was full of the holy spirit.... and I said "what?" and he said "I got my bible out today and just started reading it... I havnt read God's word in so long... I'm feeling so good today. And I talked to Grandpa for about an hour and a half about God, and he read me scriptures... and we both had a good cry."

A little background history on my brother, he used to abuse painkillers and stuff... but has recovered.

He battles with temptation... but has been clean for about a year now...

Anyways, I left his house b/c I had to take a stool sample to the Drs. (ive been having diarhea and loose stools the past 2 months... probably b/c of anxiety, but the dr wanted to make sure.)

Anyways, my brother hugged me and said "I love you, and there is nothing wrong with you, you need to quit worrying about everything"... and he started praying for me while holding me... I felt numb. Emotionally numb... and empty.

I went to the Dr.'s then back to work... then for some reason, I called my Grandpa who lives in town, and is a very spiritual man. I believe in God too, and am a Christian, but today I felt like God doesnt want me, or anyone else to suffer... the Devil does. But something led me to call my Grandpa, and ask if I could drop by his house... he said "of course".

So as I was driving over to his house, the closer and closer I got to his house, tears were pouring out of my eyes... I had no idea why... but it felt good... And when I walked inside his house... I was trying to fight back tears... and he said "well hey there! what's going on?"

And I just hugged him and I started crying so hard... he held my hand and said "lets go to the living room and talk".

I told him that I've been struggling really bad the past couple of months with anxiety and irrational worry that has given my body symptoms... and more fear... I told him I fear the worst with everything...

He opened up his Bible and read me some scripture... and then said he said a prayer with me... when we prayed... I started WEEPING... my arm jolted into the air... and my body started bending over... I was weeping so hard, I could barley breath.... My Grandpa said weeping and crying was a spiritual cleansing.

I havnt cried like that in SOOOOOOOOOO long... I really did feel the Holy Spirit... and I released SO much I felt like... I don't know what I released, but I learned it doesnt matter...

I learned it doesnt matter what's really bothering me... and I realized not to dig too deep... and just give it all to God.

It was just amazing...

I'm feeling pretty good... and I'm going to continue my spiritual walk with God.

I bet my symptoms start letting up too in the days to come.

Just wanted to vent. =) It just felt sooo good.

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This can be a long and tough journey for sure.  It will have its ups and downs, but try to focus on the positive.  Your faith can go a long way in dealing with this in my opinion.  Furthermore, it sounds like you have the support of your family as well.  That is great!
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You are blessed to have such a supportive family. Faith & Hope are so important as well as a positive attitude. Anxiety feeds on negativity so keep up that healthy attitude....and  spread it around LOL

Best wishes and thanks for sharing your awakening!
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my friend..welcome to THE cure!! haha!! awesome man !!you should look on my profile and join the prayer group!!!! ( and anyone else who wants to!!) there are lots of PROUD Christians on here and we all have a common bond( besides HIM) finding Him is what started my... recovery bro you are in a new road today how great!! Im really happy for you!
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WONDERFUL CNOTE!  Time to get a hold of the anxiety and the worrying, and the obssessing.  It's wearing you down and the anxiety cycle is just goin' round and round!

Lean on your family, on God, on us...whomever and whatever you have to to finally take back control once and for all.  I know you can do it and I'm looking forward to watching you recover.

You know I'm in your corner.
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358304 tn?1409709492
Thank you so much.
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I'm glad that you have a more positive attitude. I am learning that the negative thoughts make my anxiety worse,but it's hard to control your thoughts. Especially when they can be terrifying. I find it helpful when I cry to. I too believe in God and pray all the time that I will get better. I hope you continue to improve.
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941766 tn?1257796601
Thank God you found the answer to your problems. Just keep giving them to the Lord. I started going to praise and worship and bible studies along with going to my regular church. If you go to my profile you will see my story. I had anxiety so bad I lost 20 lbs. and almost lost my job. The devil still trys to get to me  but it just makes me closer to God.  Read your Bible every chance you get and let the Holy Spirit fill you full.
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358304 tn?1409709492
I'm def. getting into church! My wife goes with my daughter, but I always just wanna sleep in... terrible I know. But now I am going to go! And I've been reading my Bible a lot. =)
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