I'm so scared! Is this withdraw symptoms?!? Or am I really sick?!?

[Mommyju]

I took Lexapro (10mg) every night for almost 3 years... Tried to stop, had horrible withdrawals symptoms and went back to it. Now, I'm off again, not my choice! I have a horrible insurance, my psichiatrist retired, and I'm on a waiting list for a new doc! October 31st was my last half pill! Of corse, I'm hipper hipochondriac to the limit! I self diagnosed myself with skin cancer, my kids with lymphoma, and for weeks now, I'm having stomach/abdominal discomfort! Light pain in upper left side, lots of gas, constipation... No yellow skin, no bleeding, no weight loss! But of corse I think it's pancreatic cancer! (My mind already had breast, cervical and skin cancer, heart attacks, ALS, MS...)
I should know better no to google, but can't help myself... And very little symptom points to cancer! HELP!
I guess I just neede to vent! I'm sorry! But I'm so tired of living like this... I don't want to go back to Lexapro and it's not even an option right now! What can I?!? I'm due to a physical soon. Last one was a perfect score! Doctors were even jealous of my tests results that he wanted to see me in two years... Which is due soon!
Mom, 35, non smoker, non drinker and a worrier!

[Paxiled]

I'm assuming you just stopped your med cold turkey because of your failure to get a refill from your doc before he wasn't your doc anymore.  These all sound like withdrawal symptoms if that's the case.  Again, I'd get in touch with my old doc, get a refill, and if you want to quit, do it as slowly as you need to.  Otherwise, you'll just have to tough it out and hope it eventually goes away.

[Mommyju]

Sorry for the lack of symptoms... I was in the middle of an anxiet attack, and was blabbing things all over....
My symptoms are: face twitching here and there sometimes, tingling on fingers and toes that is getting better, dizziness, shaking, electric shots feelings, anxious all the time, irritated easily, agitated, and what bothers me more is abdominal discomfort... Not pain per say, just a full feeling, gas, and a discomfort in my stomach - more on the upper left side- but sometimes travels to the right side as well..
Thanks for reading...

[Paxiled]

First, you haven't said what your symptoms are -- everything you mentioned seems to have started before you stopped the Lexapro.  Second, the Lexapro is still an option -- your old psychiatrist has an ethical obligation not to put you into cold turkey withdrawal, and if you contact him or her you should be able to get a refill to tide you over.  A little threatening about malpractice if you get any static should do the trick.  But we can't know if you're suffering from withdrawal since you didn't mention what you're going through that might be attributed to it.