I feel crazy and have no one to talk to about this

[ds41980]

Hello, I am 46 y/o female. In July I broke up with a man that was a con artist and using me. So here's my issue....I have convinced myself that I am pregnant and it terrifies me.  At this point I would be 24 weeks. I have taken a pregnancy test almost every week and they are negative. I have been to planned parenthood and to my own doctor and they gave me urine tests which are negative and that was at 12 weeks. At 14 weeks I had a blood test and it was negative. At 21 weeks I asked my doctor to palpate my abdomen and she did and she tells me there is no way I am pregnant.  I am still so anxious about it. I keep poking my abdomen to see if I feel anything but I don't know what I am looking for and I don't feel anything anyways. I still have my period every month. I am obese so I can't see a bump but I have been on a diet since July and have lost 28 lbs.  there are no breast changes. But I have read these stories about women who had negative pregnancy tests and still had periods every month And still came up pregnant. What set me off today is that I swear I can see a pregnancy line developing in my abdomen. I feel crazy because I am an intelligent person and despite the facts I want to believe the universe is against me and that it is conspiring to bring a monsters child into the world. I don't know what to do about these thoughts.

[saraparker123]

girl if it said neg it problem is :but go out meet a new person and have baby why not, no such thing as a monsters child you will love her/him and beauty will come from it  blessing to you

[TheLightSeeker]

There are psychic and emotional structures deep in your subconscious mind, which are are coming through and influencing how you sense and interpret personal situations and your environment, including aspects of your body.
It is absolutely beyond the control of your intelligence and your "logical" thinking mind.
So as Pax mentioned, a reputable therapist, can help you
reach those deeply embedded structures and hopefully set you free.
You deserve to be in the "right" Path and join the Universe (which does make choices for you) to find Peace and Love.
But first, you must make the choice to accept yourself.
Best wishes,
Niko

[Paxiled]

Have you tried seeing a therapist about it?  If not, it sounds about time for it.