IM HURTING ON THE INSIDE

[nai05]

As you guys know i have been pregnant before when i was 5 weeks i got an abortion this time around i was just about 2 months and got another abortion long complicated story anyone could tell you they were lost for words and wouldnt know what to do as far as keeping it or not but my concern is its bad enough im traumatized from the first one how can i prevent myself from the ddouble depression... i have no support! :'(

[RubyWitch]

Planned Parenthood offers free gynecological exams, free birth control and free counseling. I urge you, for many reasons, to take advantage of their sevices

[nursegirl6572]

Sweetie, abortion is a very tough thing to deal with, regardless of the circumstances.  Most people don't realize that they will feel so terrible afterwards, and struggle so much with their feelings about it.  I strongly recommend you seeking out some professional therapy to help you work through these emotions, and the regret you may be feeling.

I also agree that it is SO important to make SURE you are consistently using birth control, so you don't continue to find yourself in these very difficult positions, where you feel you must make these very tough decisions.  Pregnancy is 100% preventable.  If you're on the pill, be sure to always use a condom and foam on top of that.  There are many measures you can take to prevent pregnancy, until you're ready.  Talk with your doctor about the BEST BC measure.

The other concern I have is for your physical ("woman") health.  Women who have had an abortion are at higher risk for different kinds of complications, including trouble conceiving later on down the line.  These are things you want to keep in mind.  You don't want to end up doing some kind of damage that you can't undo.  If you haven't already, I would ask a second OB to examine you, to make sure everything is okay, after having had multiple pregnancy terminations.

Please, get yourself some professional help to get you through these emotions, and PLEASE protect yourself so you don't have to face this same impossible decision again.  Also, I glanced through your prior posts, where not too long ago, you were eagerly seeking to conceive with your then partner.  I'm very concerned that you are perhaps making knee-jerk decisions for the wrong reasons (relationship security?) and then when you DO end up pregnant, it's just too much for you.  I'm worried that there is a disconnect there for you with these very big, life changing decisions.

Very best to you, dear.  Let us know how you're doing.

[Dave2436]

I'm not judging you in any way, but I don't understand why young women use abortion like a form of birth control when birth control is so readily accessible these days. Until you actually are in a position to have a child, you should use birth control so you wont have to deal with the terrible guilt associated with abortion. Maybe actually preventing a future recurrence (by taking birth control) will lessen the feelings of guilt that you have from past mistakes.