Thank you for the advice...I have tried reading, hot showers/baths. I just don't know why I can't get the thought of death out of my head. I know it's something that I can't control, but I also have a hard time controlling my thoughts!!
I have days where I'm fine and I had been doing better but then it just hit me again...Anxiety has pretty much taken over my life!!
I used to have similar fears when I was a child. I would stay up and read until i passed out from sheer exhaustion... obv at the time I didn't know how to best deal with it.
I would try meditation now, maybe even yoga. Take a hot shower or bath before bed. Make sure that you are very comfortable and that you are as relaxed as you can be. Reading is a excellent idea, try something funny or lighthearted.
Death is a fact of life, but it doesn't have to rule youe life. You should enjoy this life while you are here and not stress or worry about when it is over because when it is, you won't know. Enjoy now. I understand that it is hard not to worry about something that will happen, but you have to just accept that and move on. If you allow this anxiety to rule your life now, you really can't enjoy it the way that you should.
you poor thing, no one ever dies from anxiety by itself. I have experienced fear of sleeping, and the truth is this: your body takes care of itself when you sleep: breathing, heartbeat, etc. You can literally purposely hold your breath until you pass out, and you will automatically awaken when your body takes over breathing and your oxygen levels return to normal. I suggest maybe reading something relaxing before bed, then concentrating on relaxing thoughts as you fall asleep. This works for me.