I've written on here a few times, I like being able to express how I feel in an anonymous way, since I don't have anyone else in my life to talk to about this.
But the past year I can say has been pure hell for me. It's my last year of University and at this point I doubt im going to graduate. I was doing so well, until 4th year when all my anxiety/depression from the past 10 years just hit me all at once. I can't concentrate at all, as soon as I see a test or I try to read, my mind starts racing and I can't even comprehend a single thing, even if I the same line over and over. Plus, I cry several times a day so it's hard to be at school because I don't know when I will just start randomly crying, so I've stopped talking to friends.
Anyway, at the beginning of last the year I started on Cipralex through a normal GP, then I finally got a psychiatrist after I had a breakdown. The Psychiatrist had me on effexor for 3 months, during this time I had no relief and I had to defer all my exams. Then she took my off effexor and put me on welburtrin for my depression, but it made my anxiety increase 100%. The psychiatrist would never listen to me she just kept prescribing medication so I told her I wanted psychotherapy or some form of therapy. Then she told me that I was out of my district and shouldn't have been referred to her in the first place. So she referred me to a psychiatrist in my area, who works in the hospital. I was fortunate to get the appointment within a week, usually you have to wait 6 months + but since I had a psych referral it was faster. She told me that at the new location, they would provide me with therapy, group counseling for anxiety and I would have a psychiatrist to monitor me.
So this week I went to my appointment. This new psychiatrist actually told me my diagnosis which I had never received before. He said I have Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Depression & Post Traumatic Stress disorder. He then took me off the wellbutrin and prescribed me PMS Sertarinline. As soon as the half-hour mark hit, he told me he'll see me in another month. I told him I've been trying so many medications and I really need therapy and that my other psychiatrist told me I would get it here. He said he only has half-hour with each client. He was so rude. I was so optimistic about my new psychiatrist because I thought he would provide me therapy. I'm just wondering, where can I go to receive therapy? I don't mean counselling, I've tried it in the past. I need like something that can teach me to think differently as I feel like I am no longer in control of my own life. I'm failing classes and I'm reaching rock bottom. Sometimes I get so angry, I want to hurt other people. I have such negative thoughts and I recognize that it's getting worse. So if anyone could tell me your therapy experience and how you started it, that would be great. Also if anyone knows anything about PMS Sertraline.