Nose bleeds

[momplus321]

I first have to admit I have not been taking care of myself.  I buried my brother-in-law yesterday, and 2 years ago I buried my husband of 25 years.  I have not been myself since then.  For my kids sake i go through the routine of getting up and cooking and caring for them.  I have not had a good nights sleep in a little over 2 years.  So i admit this may be part of the problem, (depression, smoking, at least a six pack a week and not drinking because i like it but because I am numb.  Friday around 8:00 pm my nose started bleeding (continuously) did not stop until 2:00 Saturday evening.  The whole time it was bleeding i blew my nose every 5 minutes or so with big blood clots each time.  When the bleeding finally stopped around 2: Saturday evening I have had numbness on the right side of my lip, like I've been to the dentist, a little light-headed.  I go the doctor tomorrow so I can find out what's going on, and i know the first thing he is going to do is yell at me for not taking my high blood pressure pills.  I know I am supposed to be taking it (of course!) but I now realized while i have not been taking care of myself, i have in essence not been taking care of my kids by making sure I am still around to take care of them.  I guess I just wanted to get that off my chest.  Maybe this is not the site for this mixed message, but sometimes its harder for those who know better to give advice to self.  So since that is about health, i guess i just want to say that emotional health is important for the mind, body, and spirit.  You have to know when it's time to move on with living and tuck some things away, and take them out and look at them in a more productive way and remember them with a smile instead of sadness and tears (not that there is anything wrong with tears!!) thanks for listening.

[Becky2006]

momplus321- I thank you for sharing all of that. It does help to talk to people not close to you. It sounds like you have a lot going on. If your kids are teens or older they can take care of themselves for the most part. The main thing to focus on is you, your health. Loosing a spouse I have heard is hard. I would imagine he would want you to go on living life, be happy. As to the health issues. yes taking your medication should be a priority. I am happy to hear you are going to the Dr.  I will not preach on the smoking/drinking. Except to say everything will still be there, only takes the pain/numbness away for a very short time. There are a lot of things in life to look forward to. For one your kids, grandkids. Have you looked into a support group? They help in many ways. Also yoga, Ti chi help relax you, you feel great afterwards. If you want to chat feel free send a message. Please keep us posted with the Dr visit. Since you had the nose bleed a long time, felt numb did you go to the hospital? If you get another nose bleed that will not stop please go to the ER or weekend care. Bleeding that long, feeling numb is not  a good sign nor is being light headed.
Good luck-
Hugs-
Rebecca

[cheshchesh819]

How brave are you too come on this site andadmit that you havent been looking after yourself,you have been through an awful ordeal and i hope that the doctors wont shout at you but help you with everything you need,what you have been doing it almost normal for a person who is grieving and yes we do all slightly forget the others around us,but as you have proved you can pick yourself up and do the best you can in such a sad situation,my heart iswith you and please let us know what the doctor says.