Hi n.n
If you're uncomfortable with your doctor.. please change doctors. You need somebody who generally sympathises for you. Anxiety disorders can be horrible and need to be approached with care.
Even though you seem to be a person of great Anxiety and you obviously depend on medication, there are other ways that can help your anxiety which don't require meds. Personally you can help yourself through mental imagery, techniques, meditation(VERY HELPFUL), and just general eating, sleeping and exercising habits help keep your anxiety on the low. Basically what I am saying is, if you feel discouraged because you are having some problems with the dosage of your medication I suggest trying to help yourself through something like mediation and personal self help techniques. I strongly suggest seeing a different doctor or even a psych who does not prescribe meds (somebody who can teach you some techniques to help with your anxiety). Just remember when you have anxiety to 'accept', breathe properly and try and make a passive change in attitude to try and melt into a non-anxiety state. I hope you all the best. You have our support
my heart goes out to you , as i know how scarey it can be to be without your meds. first xanax is not a good long term med, its a short acting med in the blood and your body will want more and more , shame on your dr for giving you this drug knowing you have anxiety and its a long term fight. my mom took this pill for 4 year or more if she did not have it she got very anxiety/panic and felt as if she could not breath. you need to know your ok its the med making you feel this way since you have not took it. i think you need to get another dr that cares more about you than pushing you out his door. your taking way to much of that drug, you need to wing off of it and go on a long term drug that your body will not want more of. klonopin is a long term med and it has very little side affects. plz get help winging off that med and get you a good support person who you can call when your into a attack, i found out that helped me more to have someone to understand me and be there for me than any med ever did. prayers are with you. plz keep in touch. if you run out of meds than go to hospital they might help you out for a few days.,
It is very hard sometimes for doctors to really understand anxiety. The control thing. Sometimes you have to shop for a doctor who is going to understand and really pay attention to your needs. Just tell your doctor now that you and he need to put together a better plan control your anxiety. If he is not willing change doctors. Lord knows I have been where you are. What I do is break my pills in half cause sometimes a half is just enough to get that anxiety down.. that way you actually have more t spare
If you have an insurance plan it won't take long to figure out what you were doing and it probably wouldn't look good to your doctors. If you don't have insurance than I don't think they would likely find out without you signing a medical records release. Too bad you did have my doctors, they try to pour xanax down your throat and I don't even take the stuff anymore. I still a perscription for 90x .5mg / 8 refills, but I wouldn't need it because I have probably 300 pills left from past prescriptions. If you lived close by I would just give you some. I would reccomed just trying to stop but since your on klonopin you might not have very bad withdraw symptoms. Good luck, I hope it all works out for you.
maybe your doctor needs to up your antidepressant? Maybe then you wouldn't need so much Xanax.Ask him about this.