Has anyone else felt like this?

[Teddy87]

Hey everyone,

I am a bit confised in thr way I feel.

I suffer from anxiety attacks and have been put on medication as I recently pulled a muscle in my lung becasue of one. While at the doctors she questioned me and I admitted that I had been sexually abused as a child, she referred me to a coucellor who I went to see last night. Since this happened I have always put this to the back of my head and tried to forget about it. I never really felt like this was affecting my life. When seeing the councillor last night she asked me normal questions that anyone would ask you and came to the conclusion that I need counsilling. Since she has told me this I have been thinking aobut it non stop now and I never thought that someone asking me normals things could affect me this way. I will probably be in long term counsilling and I am scared that if this is the way I feel after one assesment, what am I going to be like when it gets down to the deep emotions.

Has anyone else felt like this?

Thanks everyone!!

[callain]

It does make sense to me... I always get disappointed and angry if I'm expecting something and it doesn't happen.  However, it's true that whilst it's a normal way to feel, maybe it's not so justified.  Taking the day off work gives you some time to yourself to relax, so make the most of it :)

[Teddy87]

Hello again,

Just thought I would post as I am feeling pretty down today :( I cannot seem to pick myself up at all. You know what it started over?

Well, it is my birthday this week and my other half had asked me to take Friday and Monday off work. I did this, this morning I got up and was very tired. He said to me that I have only today to go and then i'm off and he is at uni tomorrow so wont be here to annoy me. I asked him where we not supposed to be doing somthing tomorrow becasue if not there is not point in me taking the day off. He got annoyed and said, I have deadlines to meet this week.

I know it is selfish for me to feel this way as he does have deadlines but I cannot help but be disappointed aobut this and now it has started my day off badly.

I know it sounds like a really silly reason but I dont know why it is annoying me so much grrrrr.

Thanks for listening

[Teddy87]

Thanks for the support. I will def keep posting here, it seems to make me feel more normal if that makes sense.

Hope your therpy continues to go well!!

Thanks

[atticus565]

The first few sessions of therapy can be the hardest. After all, you're not used to disclosing such personal information to someone. I've noticed that alot of times in therapy, I'll say things that I've never said before because I thought there was no one to say them to. But attending counseling gets those feelings out in the open so that you can analyze them and figure out how to deal with them.
            Look at it this way. If you experienced that much discomfort after your first visit, you've probably touched on something very important and worth exploring. It might be difficult, but will suffering through a few potentially painful therapy visits be any worse than the discomfort you've been feeling which lead you to seek therapy in the first place? You'll be fine. I'd recommend you to keep going. I've been seeing a therapist for four months about my anxiety and it's really helped me. I wish you the best of luck and keep posting here if you're feeling down.