Hiv anxiety

[mommyofone284]

I have done something's I am not proud of , I had a 3 some with my husband and another girl my fear is that my husband caught it from her as he was doing unprotected anal . I don't remember the last time I had unprotected sex with him it was either early February or mid February because I got so scared.
I remember googling symptoms over and over again having dreams about it everything . I feel like its still ruining my life and my relationship .
I swear I check my mouth 20 plus times a day to see if my tongue is white from oral thrush . I remember looking at my arms and everywhere for a rash and ill find bumps and freak out . I finally decided to buy a home hiv test the Ora quick on April 29th - it came out non reactive
Bought another on April 30th non reactive

Thought I would be okay I wasn't I started googling how reliable they were and found out that many people were against them .
So I made an appointment with my health department they preformed a clearview blood rapid test from taking blood from a vein - 20 minutes later came back non reactive
In Texas they preform a pcr rna test along with my rapid test so It took till the following Tuesday for me to recieve those results those as well were non reactive .
I seriously thought that this was the end of it then I googled how accurate the pcr test were and I didn't like what I read so now of course I'm terrified checking symptoms crying ect.

My husband went a received at oraquick advance mouth swab from a health clinic on may 14th it was non reactive ...
What is wrong with me I'm terrified and I can't get over it

[mommyofone284]

You may be right I know we split up for a few months last year and I got drunk and had sex unprotected vaginal sex with unknown male and that is what initially triggered everything . I figured it was from guilt but this was a year ago and now I can't stop worrying that my test were wrong that they didn't do it right or I didn't wait long enough

[remar]

I'm glad to hear you've already been to the HIV forum. The people there are really great.
I have to wonder if the anxiety is truly coming from the HIV concern or because you and your husband brought someone else in to your bedroom. Please don't be upset by that. I really want you to think about where the anxiety is truly coming from because both and your husband have been tested and you absolutely do not have it.  

[Vance2335]

You have received great answers in the HIV forums and see no reason to return to ask anything more there. I suggest that you might want to talk to a therapist to help you out.

[mommyofone284]

I don't know if she has been we don't talk to her anymore for personal reasons and every time we ask she doesn't reply . She told my husband that she had been tested this whole thing scares me

[remar]

We have a great HIV forum here at Medhelp if you would also like to post your question there. This happened several months ago and you and your husband have both been tested and the tests all came back negative. Has the other woman also been tested?