My anxiety is back again. :/ I feel really selfish because I feel like Im only on here when I have anxiety attacks. Its really bad. For the past week I've been going to bed at 5-6am because The attacks won't let me go to bed. I'm even having nightmares. And when I try and sleep, I tell myself not to have nightmares, and then It triggers a panic attack, so I end up having both an attack and nightmares. I think It's honestly time to see a therapist. Really. But I can't afford one right now. I'm starting My 2nd year of college and I need to get classes paid for before I even start the semester. I have hospital bills that I'm helping my parents pay for, and its all piling up on me again. Im in a wonderful relationship, and sometimes my anxiety comes between that too. I'm so scared to lose everything.
I'm so sorry. Those attacks are horrible. It's strange how we can get these thoughts out of no where is'nt it? Yes, it's very common to feel completely exhausted after having one of these. I had a small one last night at the check pout line. It was hard to even get my groceries paid for.
Do not be angry with yourself. I think all of us have triggers that can bring on an anxiety attack. You know what your main one is and that's a huge step in the right direction. Yes, I do think therapy would really help.
I'll be here at MH for awhile so I'll keep checking to see if you post back. Hang in there, okay. You're fine and the attack is over with. Thank goodness!
Take some nice slow breaths and get yourself calmed down.
And while we can empathize completely with your panic and your fear, and we DO want to help as soon as we can, we are all volunteers in our homes, not some huge tele-center and sometimes it may take awhile for one of us to get back to you. None of us appreciates being yelled at "NOW PLEASE!"
You also gave YOURSELF the advice I'm going to give you which is to see your doctor for a colmplete physical, and a referral to a therapist. And yes, it does help...........a lot.
I will also tell you that self-diagnosing is never a good idea as we are quite often wrong.
If you are against taking medication, no one is going to force you to take any. You might want to explore your reasoning with the therapist. Medication can be extremely beneficial and used on a very short term basis.
Since you have hypnophobia, I would most certainly suggest you NOT watch the kind of program you did. It appears to be a pretty strong trigger for your anxiety and therefore, well worth avoiding at all cost.
Since you claim passionfruit tea has the same effect on you as Xanax, I would suggest you stock up on it until you can see your doctor and get into therapy.
You're going to be fine and being angry at yourself is not going to help. It's not your fault this is happening to you, but you CAN help yourself by getting into therapy, which will teach you how to cope with it.
Peace
Greenlydia