how to deal with new hiv fear

[Jsanch]

Hello Everyone, I don't know where to start so I guess at the beginning is best. Back in February i had an incident where I was spit on, whether accidentally or on purpose I don't know but I guess it doesn't really matter. I was fine for a few days as I have always known that saliva isn't infectious. shortly after, the what if's started. I started thinking maybe he had bleeding gums a sore, ect ,ect. Finally i wrote in and got great advice from teak. However this didn't calm my nerves so i started reading the multiple questions on here. I can honestly say that i always knew hiv was hard to acquire but I didn't know just how difficult it actually was. So here lies my issue. I'm aware of the ways of transmission and that you don't get it from everyday activities and so on, but I can't shake the fear. Its's gotten to the point where i have a hard time just going out. I don't quite understand what's going on, I've never had fears or phobias about anything, but this is kicking my butt! I realize I haven't actually asked a question I guess I don't actually have one. 
I'm 37 years old and these fears are new to me and I'm not handling them well. Some input or advice on how to deal with or overcome this fear would be most welcome. 

Thank you so much for listening 
Jsanch

[ThePinkFloyd]

Hiv is not present at bare skin.You could never get in contact with hiv when leaving home because the virus it would not be there.I am strongly suggest that you talk to a psychologist,therapy has helped me a great deal and its still helping me through this.It really helps and its a weapon for dismissing this fear once and for all.

[Jsanch]

Sorry I accidentally hit send.
I was saying that this is new to me and I was hoping to try to work it out myself first

[Jsanch]

Thank you for your kind words they are greatly appreciated.
My anxiety isn't in the spit incident as I've come to accept and agree it was a no risk. My fear starts when I have to interact and and come in contact with people. I start to think that every handshake every high five every time you bump into someone is a risk which I know is absolutely ridiculous. Like I said, I've done a lot of reading on here the last few months and I know the ways of transmission and how fragile a virus it is and all that but it still doesn't stop me from feeling anxious. I hadn't considered talking to a psychologist as I said this fear/ phobia

[ThePinkFloyd]

You are not alone in this for sure. I also had a non-risk situation and I have developed fear about hiv.I totally understand what you are going through and I can give you some advices for my 8 months now..experience of living with this.First of all and I am sure that you know that,getting spit on you its tottally zero risk for getting hiv.I know you know that but you have a hard time to accept it.I know cause I am in the same situation where I know something for fact,my logic says that there is no risk but my mind keeps torturing me.When my dark thoughts are trying to get me I keep reminding my self the logic path ''I had protected sex so I was in a zero risk for hiv and I was tested netative so I am negative''.Although this thought can not make be believe 100% that I am free of danger it helps me keeping my mind off the irrational fears.Have you thought about talking to a psychologist about your fears? I bet he will help you a lot.Keep reminding yourself that if you could catch hiv just by casual contact we would have been ectincted of the planet.That is a fact.