Undiagnosed Illness?

[ItsAciD]

Hey guys. I was wondering if there is a name for this. I always and i mran alwayssss have this feeling or better yet it has been engraved in my brain that i have a severe illness that doctors wernt able to see. Its like i already know i have a bad disease and im going to die from it. However this thought makes me really anxious. And i think this is the main underlying issue yo my anxiety disorder. I think if i can reassure mysekf I dont have anything wrong with me my anxiety will go away. But it is not easy at all.

[Nitsuj242]

Dude this is totally what i'm going through to. I guess best advice i've got is if you've been checked out at a hospital/ Dr. Got an Ekg and bloodwork. Everything came back clear. Tell yourself the tests do NOT lie. The doctors do not lie nor can't legally lie to you. Deep breathing techniques can help. Focus on things or people that make you happy, hopeful, proud whatever or whoever they may be. About not eating. I'm dealing with this to. I've no appetite what so ever. I'm only eating a meal a day. But remind yourself you can live a good while with out ANY food until you starve to death that it's water you can not live without. If you at least at a meal you should be just fine. The more you eat the better chances you won't get a panic attack from low blood sugar or jittery feeling though. I'm right here with you buddy. Scared to sleep at night thinking i'm going to die in my sleep.Scared i'm not eating enough. I was SO convinced I was having a heart attack today and I went to the Dr. got an Ekg. Everything was fine. It's anxiety dude. It can do some wicked hellish things to us mentally and give us physical pain and make us fear the worst possible scenarios possible. Hang in there. I agree it is difficult to accept it is only anxiety causing these things. It's often easier to just give in to these fears and believe them then accept the truth and be able to relax.Drink sleepy time chamomile tea at bedtime. It can help. Keep nicotine doses low if you smoke...this can add to anxiety plus add to not having an appetite to eat.Indulge yourself in the things you love and talk to your friends loved ones about your fears. Get reassurance from them that everything will be ok. Hear that you will be ok it just takes some time.

[ItsAciD]

Thanks for the comments. Any suggestions how I can tell myself im ok and thete is nothig wrong when i have derealization 24/7. Which is complete hell to me. Like i know i heard tovignore it but how?? Its just to difficult to me to accept "it will go away" like everything seems fake. Its like i dont even know if i alive or not. After i withdrew from xanax i felt like i passed away in my sleep and woke up alive i a dream. But it's just really difficult to cooe withvit. Therefore any small thing that bothers REALLY bothers me and i get some message in my head, uh oh here we go im going to die this is another symptom of [insert severe non treatable disease here] and im about to dieee. And i just hate it. A simple headache can make me go crazzyyyy. Also sometimes i dont feel hungry and i start thinkig i will never be able toveat and i going to die fro lack of food and just awful other horrid thoughts come to me. Very difficult to accept its all anxiety related.

[Nitsuj242]

P.S. This IS hellish. I agree with others and seeking professional help plus anxiety meds should help.This is what I'm gonna do. Maybe we should also all except that the tests and dr.s don't/can't lie? :)  I dunno. Hope this helped.

[Nitsuj242]

HI there, i'm the same way.Not pleasant. It can seem like you've been cursed or damned. Or that you are already dead in hell . I'm a 26 year old male. I've been in constant fear of dying. Dying in my sleep, having cancer, having heart problems.My heart stopping in my sleep. Thinking i'm getting too skinny and that my body hair grows back too thinking that it's from cancer. I'm in and out of the Dr.s office for the past year or so. Had tons of bloodwork done; EKG's.Been to the E.R. called an ambulance thinking my parents were poisoning me because they wanted me to move out because I can't get better enough to do so, so they resorted to lacing my food or drink with something. I'm having trouble sleeping. Not eating enough. Sometimes not even one meal. I believe i'm under demonic attack. I heard a voice wake me up that yelled  "F*ck you Jesus" in my sleep .I only feel somewhat better when I constantly have the phone next to me in case of calling an ambulance. One thing that helped temporarily is I went to this church and knelt down in front of the altar. I felt something hit me and I burst into tears. That whole day was beautiful and never felt better. Things came back and have only been getting worse and still dealing with the things listed on the top of this comment. Today i'm headed back to the Dr.to see about getting yet another EKG still dealing with left arm, chest/ heart pain.Maybe I should see about therapy and getting an MRI? Hang in there! This is one long hard road out of hell to have anxiety,health anxiety/ hypochondria!! I believe others advice that group therapy and anxiety meds can help! Take care. - K-BomB

[Beautiful_Diaster]

That's the funny thing about health anxiety it can cause the symptoms that you are having. Which leads to more anxiety and you feeling like what ails you is going to kill you. My first advice would be to see a doctor to have some tests run. If everything comes back clear then the only other thing to do is what Greenlydia said. Though I am still searching for answers I have come to realize I was over thinking some of my pain. What might be just a slight twinge of pain in my chest would feel like a stabbing blow to me. I've learned to slow down and think these things through to keep from having full blown panic attacks. Dont stress over it and know that you are not alone.
Hope this helps,
Beautiful_Diaster

[Crysda]

I am dizzy and unbalanced most of the time and scared stupid.  Scared of these horrible feelings and also of what is wrong with me and that it won't ever stop.  

I think your advice greenlydia is good that we need to search inside to see why we are so scared and where it is coming from.

Health anxiety I guess can make your symptoms even worse.  I am not just frightened abut being ill I actually feel really ill.  Isn't it different if you are just frightened of getting ill but with no symptoms?

[RubyWitch]

You are all suffering from, at the very least, health anxiety, which is being exacerbated by hypochondria.
As an ex-hypochondriac, I know, only too well, what it feels like to have doctors blow you off.
My advice, which took me many, many YEARS to accept, was that I needed professional help. Once I allowed that possibility into head, I couldn't let it go. If I was doing this to mysef, I wanted to stop. I desperately wanted to be normal, to not live in constant fear and panic that I was dying and no one would believe me.
It took a long time (2 years to be exact) for me to get to the root cause of my anxiety, a lot of therapy, a lot of different meds, a whole bunch of frustration and tears, but I found the reason and then I understood why I had done this to myself, and I learned how to accept and undo all the wrong stuff in my head.
I still consider myself a "minor-hypochondriac." I'm more vigilant about aches and pains than people around me. But when I get a headache now, I can usually figure out why I've got it, the words BRAIN TUMOR really aren't in my vocabulary any longer. A fleeting pain in my chest is just that.....it's not lung cancer or a heart attack.
Please consider therapy to find the reason behind your fear. Hypochondria and anxiety suck all the joy out of life. Invest some time and yes, money, and get your life back. Don't be like me........don't waste years and years that you'll never, ever get back.
Peace
Greenlydia  

[ItsAciD]

Hi thanks for the welcome comments! Yes i am going to a psychiatrist for about 6 months now. What i am experiencing is severe derealizayion for about 4-5 months and it *****. It happenend exactly after i withdrew from xanax. Since then i have never been the same person.  the mai reaso why i feel like im going to die or w.e is because i am 24/7 dizzy. I feel like im o a boat and my eyes lose focus and it just feels like i am going to die instantly out of no where . Like if i have a time bom inside me rwady to blow.

[Beautiful_Diaster]

Im sorry that you both are going through this. I have been suffering from it to for a little over a month now. If you read my previous post you will understand why. But after much research what I found is that what you described is calle Hypochondria. The sad part is doctors deal with you as sort of a burden once they realize this. But it is a true and debilating disorder. it a a psych-somatic thing which basically means the mind has the power to ail the body. If you think there is pain in your body long enough then the mind will manifest that pain upon itself. I hope this provides you as much comfort as possible. Try meditation and deep breathing to relax and redirect your mind.

[Cntbreal]

Hey hun. Sorry for you feeling this way. I am the same so your not alone. The name I'm not sure what to call it other then health anxiety. I feel like I'm going to die because dr can't find anything wrong other them anxiety and panic.

I know its not way to reassure yourself about the fact if being ok. I'm sure we ask feel our have felt this way now or before. Are you in meds have you spoken to a dr about this??

All the test I have had done that come back normal is not enough and its hard to function. But we/you must keep pushing and moving forward. Either keep trying to find the cause of you feeling this way our try to calm yourself and just keep telling yourself I'm ok I'm ok..

Hope you get better..