I Want To Share My Story - Someone Help Me PLZ :)

[John23a]

ok it all started from a day of having some sort of panick attack and emergency crue rushing into my house. i was doing my normal daily task when all of sudden i felt weak, i started having nasuea and i started shaking so i freaked out and i called 911 and thats when everything got worse. i went to the emergency room and they did blood test and a chest+neck xray (i suffered a neck strain the day before this) and they told me everything was fine. So i started getting weird symptoms after that. it was like every day i got a different symptoms. Headaches, noises in the ear, neck pain, sounds in my head, neck stiffness, vision problems, severe dizziness, nausea, and etc. Then i was like ok i think i have a brain tumor. So i forced my family DR to write me an CT scan from my head. He was like its all anxiety im sure there is nothing wrong with u. I did the CT scan and it came back normal. Then i started thinking it might be something else. A spinal cord injury or something wrong with my blood. I did a full blood test (everything u can imagine) and they all came back to be normal. After the CT scan from my head the headaches noises everything disappeared. This just showed me that these are all my own imagination causing it. So im pretty sure there isnt anything wrong with me physically although i still have an MRI to do from my neck. The doctor told me he can send me for an MRI from the head if i really want to but he was like i know there is nothing wrong with you physically. So all i can think of is anxiety. It's funny i know the fact all these symptoms are caused by anxiety and yet i still cant get over it and not think about any serious diseases. Its like when they do the test and i know there is nothing wrong i come up with another disease. Anyways i just decided to give up and ignore these symptoms till they go away (at least im trying). Im glad that most of these symptoms i had when it all first started are gone, like headaches, dizziness and etc. But one of my symptoms doesn’t seem to go away. i feel dreamy (almost all the time) kind of like im acting on a movie and its all a dream. I also get nausea sometimes when im stressed but nothing serious or bothering. I just wish this feeling of dreaminess could go away. Does anyone feel the same? like its all a dream and u look at the world around you and you think to yourself am i dreaming? is this real? is my life a movie? i really dont want to start medications for anxiety because i believe the mind is strong enough to coop with these problems. anyways i just wanted to share my story with u guys. Btw im 18 and im really in love with this girl. I have a car, house, i cant think of anything that’s causing all this. I just had a hard break up and a year of doing drugs which i quit and whenever i think back to those days i just feel like crying. Im like why did u waste one year of ur life sitting in ur room thinking about a girl and doing drugs to coop with the pain.

[manthalatrice]

Just because you start to take medication does not mean you have to be on them the rest of your life. Once your doctor feels that you are at the point were you can function without the meds, he will SLOWLY ween you off of them. Like I said in the earlier post, if you find another way to cope, then shoot for it. My thing is......don't spend your life being unhappy for fear of becoming dependent on drugs. As for anxiety causing sleep problems in everyone.........no it doesn't. We all have a mixture of different symptoms. Its different for everyone. One person my have depersonalization, insomnia, headaches, dizziness, etc, and the next my have headaches, upset stomache, and over sleeps. Also, your symptoms can change up at any given time, So you have to work on your individual case.

[John23a]

oh btw i was just wondering..does anxiety cause sleep problems and insomnia? because i dont seem to have that..like as soon as i go to bed i fall sleep..it doesnt even take a minute..and i can easily sleep for 9-10 hours. does anxiety cause sleep problems in everyone?

[John23a]

Hi manthalatrice..thanx for the reply
the reason i dont want to take medication is bcs i dont want to become dependent on it. So every time i dont take medications i'm gonna feel the symptoms again. That means i have to take those anxiety medications for the rest of my life. i rather not take them and coop with the symptoms. i don’t want to become dependent on any medications for my mental health. to be honest i think this is the worst feeling. im out with my friends or gf and all of sudden i feel like its all a dream. i'm just hoping i would wake up one day and feel normal again.

[manthalatrice]

Hi.  The dream feeling you are experiencing is depersonalization/derealization. Many of us with anxiety experience this. It was the worst part of my anxiety! I hated it! The only time that I didn't experience it was when I have xanax. Sad to say that in my case it only really went away long term when I started taking Lexapro. And every so often it pops back up when I get worked up. I know you don't want to start on meds......none of us that are on them do. If you feel like there is another way then shoot for it!!! But know that there is nothing wrong with taking meds!! It doesn't make you any less of a person. It bothers me that we jump and take meds for everything else, but when it comes to our mental health we shy away!! I hate to say it but.........keep in mind that if your mind was strong enough to cope, you wouldn't be having this problem. Its ok to get help. And know that we are all here when you need us. Most of us still think we have everything under the sun, and turn out to have nothing. That's all a part of having anxiety. I have diagnosed myself with everything from throat cancer to menigitis........and I don't have any of it! LOL! Its gonna be ok.

[John23a]

btw right now im suspecting some sort of problem with my neck (could be my anxiety again) like im thinking it might be a spinal injury or something with the veins connecting from the neck to the head that’s causing all these dreamy vision. But i know im gonna get the results for my neck MRI next week and its gonna be normal. Its like i know its anxiety but i can just accept it.