Yay!! Good news

[erin626]

I've been struggling with random panic attacks since I've gotten over the constant anxiety feelings. And I just wanted to come and update about my progress with these attacks. This weekend has been rough for me...my boyfriend had to go out of town for work and I was so scared because I view him as my "safe person". But he comes back tonight and I've done really well. I managed work on Friday and Saturday night. Saturday was a challenge for me because I had to work a wedding reception with 200 guests. Even in the large dining room that we have, 200 guests makes it very tight. So of course I started feeling anxious, having to constantly make my way through the crowd. At one point it felt like all of my breaths were getting stuck in my chest and my chest began to hurt. I let my co-workers know that i was excusing myself for a moment and stepped outside, got some fresh air, and had a cigarette. It helped calm my nerves. I still noticed the breathing issue when I got back inside but decided to not let it bother me and i finished out my evening at work without a hitch.

Yesterday I managed to get myself active. I went with my dad and his girlfriend to a trail and went on a bike ride. Im scared of being too far away from my car or other people, im guessing residual agoraphobia..but i got on the bike i rode 5.5 miles away from where we started. The beginning of the ride was hell...anxious, nausea, difficulty breathing. But after the first little hump i started to really enjoy myself.

And now today i am sitting at home by myself..watching tv, entertaining myself on the computer, went to the store. I'm terrified of being home alone..yet here i sit. A little nervous but not uncomfortable. I haven't had the intense panic attacks i experienced in the weeks prior. I felt them creeping up but got them under control myself before they turned into a horrible attack.

I was even able to fall asleep last night and saturday night without the help of a sleep aide.

I just needed to share how well i managed this weekend..even though i thought this would be a horrible and anxious few days since my boyfriend has been out of town. I'm feeling really optimistic about everything.

[erin626]

It feels good. Tonight I got anxious at work so I went outside and I cried. It seriously calmed the anxiety down lol I felt so dumb and was kind of embarassed but it helped. I can't even remember the last time I cried. Maybe I'll start doing it more often haha

[matts27]

Glad to hear you're doing so well!  It's great to hear it get better.  I've been struggling with similar feelings... and I'm still convincing myself it's only anxiety!

[DJ873]

Nice job!!! getting some momentum and knowing whatever happens we will handle it goes a long way!!

[Persephone3576]

Yay! I'm so glad to hear that things are going well for you. I too am terrified of being alone for too long, so I know exactly how that can feel. It's a huge deal to spend all day by yourself and be okay with it! Kudos.

[mammo]

Good for you Erin!  It's always great to hear some good news!