Is it anxiety

[tweetybird1979]

Hello am 34 years old and I sometime think about not being here on earth one, it first start when I was about 26, I got a new job and only worked for a few hours a day, and one day I watch the news with the school shooting that keep happening in  different school and the death of Anne Nicole smith, yes I know it dumb but after awhile I start to feel like am not going to be here on earth forever and am getting older, and the doctor put me on welburtin.   And after awhile I was fine, and about a year ago I had 2 death in my family one was my aunt, father and the other was my dog that I had since she was a puppy and I had to put her to sleep cause she was getting bad, and the same day I went to the doctor to have her put me on the welburtin and after awhile I was fine going on with my normal life and now after coming home from vacation with my parents and my aunt and uncle, I feel the same way, I never stop talking the medication since last year after the 2 death in my family but I was on 2 pills twice a day and after a few months of that and me feeling better I talked to the doctor and she say to just take 1 a day.  On vacation we went on a tour about Edisto Island,SC and it took us to old housing and grave yard and to found out the same day we left the room we stay in was hauted cause they use to be a house there before the timeshare was there, and when I was in the shower the morning before I left I saw a black shadow walk by the shower and the night before playing cards with my uncle and mom, my mom and uncle trying to sacred me and I fine with that kind of thing before but not this time, and after coming home I start thinking and wondering about one day not being on earth and my age and I want to the doctor to ask her about want else I can do and refill my meds. and she say talk the welburtin twice a day not 1 times and I be on the twice a day since the 29th of Feb.  and I starting to feel better but not 100% better, am going on with my everyday life but I cant stop thinking about my age and one day we will not be here on earth and it scared me and I talked to my mom about and it help but it still there in the back of my head I just want to feel better and I don't want to have the wondering in the back of my head anymore and also am going to college to finish my AS degree and I don't know if that have anything to do with that?   Everyone say I have depression cause I cry when I feel that way, but I don't know if it depression or Anxiety?  Please help

[tweetybird1979]

I do pray often

[Life360_Dave]

Hi, in the face of our own uncertainty, spiritually can fill in the gap. Rest in the arms of God. We were all raised in some religious upbringing and tend to leave this behind us as we age. Go back to it, pray once in a while, pray for others that are ill, pray for some guidance that God will show you some talents where you can bring hope and wisdom to an otherwise unknown world.
Be a worker of God, thats all of our calling to bring good hope and aide to others.
We percieve that we are the center of the universe we will be faced we our own doom. If we percieve that we are here to help others then our lives really dont matter as when we work for God there is great job security.