anxiety of HIV test result

[alen1991]

4 weeks ago I went to massage parlour and had a full massage and at the end a handjob , without oral , vaginal and anal sex !!! ,,, I was worry about hiv infection through contacting her hand with my back or contacing with my penis . I know the risk of infection through this incident is very low !! but a very low risk action in my life is high for me !!! during this weeks I read a lot in the internet about hiv symptom and Unfortunately I could find some of the in mine , for example as I read about Diarrhea  , I be Diarrhea afew days after that , and when I undertood swollen lymph nodes is one of the most common symptom , I fond my nodes swollen !!! I dont koow all of them are becoz of anxiety or not !!! any way to day I decided to go and got a hiv p24 test , and now I am waiting for the result , tomorrow evening it will be ready . but this night will be to long for me , Im so scared .I dont know what should I do this night , and what will happen if it will not be good news ...

[kickanxietysbutt]

It doesn't matter.  In order to contract HIV, fluids need to be exchanged.  Unless she had a gaping wound in her finger and somehow managed to get that inside of you, you have absolutely nothing to worry about.  Look at it this way...if you go to church, you probably shake hands with people around you.  Getting a massage, the same lady is touching the rest of your body.  Just because her hand touched your genitals, does not mean that you are any more prone to getting HIV than if she touched your hand.  She could use oil, water, dirty, or fairy dust, and it wouldn't change the outcome...you can't get HIV from somebody touching you anywhere on your body.  

[alen1991]

thank you for your comment , but plz determine that it was more thantouching skin , it was a massage with oil and handjob at the end of massage , so Im worry about hiv and others STd , I agree with you about couse of the diarrhea and lymph nodes , any way to night I will not sleep such as before nights . but hope It was the last night I have sleepless and anxiety , thank you all for your kindly comment and reply , and pray for me .

[kickanxietysbutt]

You cannot, I repeat CANNOT get HIV from somebody touching your skin. If that were the case, the whole world would be infected.   The diarrhea is probably from the anxiety you are experiencing, and you said you've been touching your lymph nodes a lot.  It sounds like your symptoms are anxiety over your fear of HIV, and from poking around your lymph nodes too much.  The only way to contract HIV sexually is when penetration occurs.  You have zero risk.

[alen1991]

thank you for your answer , I have swollen lymph nodes in my neck and also under my shoulder ,,, but after I read about them , I touched them every day and I hope perhaps it occured becoz of touching tnem many time ,,, and thanks more time for your answer ,

[Life360_Dave]

You went on a vacation to another country and most likely your diarrhea is from the water also you nodes could be swollen as you picked up virus.Is it the nodes in your neck or groin or armpits. If its your neck, these are the ones that get the effect of a cold infection. I travelled many years and the first thing i got was diarrhea. Just hang in there and i know it will be good news.