I dont like people behind or around me.

[jess8512]

I get really mad and frustrated when people are behind me or stand behind me and I cant see them, like they are spying on me and watching what Im doing, especially when Im at work and they can see my computer screen. I dont like going to the mall or stores alone because I cant stand strangers pacing around me, sometimes when I go . But I dont have social anxiety because I can start up a friendly conversation with anyone. its just at times I dont like the feeling of another body near me. I noticed this got worse when my Ex hit me, he broke my eye sockett and it was painful emotionally and physically. This hasnt made me afraid of people at all.

[jess8512]

It has never even crossed my mind to think of PTSD I guess in my head because I could never see the results of what happenend I figured I was fine. they offered help during my check ups with the doctor, but I always think Im fine, and that I got over it. But then anytime someone would bring it up feelings wise I well up and hold back tears, which probably indicates Im not fine. Im ok talking about what happenend to me its just when it comes to the feelings part and damages to my feelings I start to feel tears comming. I will try to look further into seeking help Thank you for your reply.

[jess8512]

Thank you for your reply, I'll try to pick that book up, It sounds like a good read.

[caregiver222]

Your symptoms are very interesting. They are "hard-wired" genetically. If you can find a copy read "The Territorial Imperative", by Robert Ardrey (if I spelled that correctly). This reaction is common in many animal species, to one degree or another, and is linked with survival. I can't say there is treatment, however you are not mentally ill.

[JGF25]

Obviously you have some sort of PTSD going on from your ex hitting you.  I mean he didn't just slap you on the arm, he obviously punched you as hard as he could in the face.  This would be traumatic for anyone.  You may not think that it is the trigger for this but it most likely is.  Did you seek any therapy after this incident?  I think that seeing a psychologist to talk about these issues will do you the world of good.  As you said there were physical scars and I'm sure they were dealt with but the emotional ones, those are the ones that stay in the background wreaking havoc until we start to fix those as well.  My best.