please can someone help me

[nataliexxx]

ok, for about a year now i think i have caught HIV through the following,

getting a pirecing through a licensed shop
having blood flicked into my mouth
someone stabbing me with a needle in a club.... and the list goes on

i have been tested for HIV and all came back negative.

a couple of weeks ago i worked in a bar, got a heat rash and ictched it and then thought someone had stabbed me with a HIV needle.
so to get that thought out of my mind i had a HIV test done at the GUM clinic and all came back negative.

so here is my thing now. i think that the lady who did my blood test had HIV, poked herself with the needle before taking my blood, hense giving me HIV.

is this a rational sense of thinking????

[nursegirl6572]

You are only going to cause more anxiety by going on and off the medication.  You need to keep taking it...there's a reason you feel better, it's b/c of the med!

Until you get some counselling and are able to stop this paranoid and irrational way of thinking, I think you should remain on the Zoloft.  Also, get yourself into therapy...it WILL really help!

Best of luck!

[nataliexxx]

hey, i am on 100mg of stertaline and have been for a while, the thing is when i feel better i stop taking them. but i have been back on them for about two weeks.

i just cant get out of my head that the woman who took my blood at the hospital had HIV and gave it to me.

all my friends i tell just laugh at me and tell me here we go again, but to me its very real. esp as i have just got over sickness and diaherra and thats a symptom of it, but to be fair my other half had it and one of my daughters.

[nursegirl6572]

I have to second (and third and fourth) the advice you've received.  Your fears are irrational and your thinking is indicative of a phobia you've likely developed as a result.

Since you've sought treatment for anxiety before, I would suggest returning to that doctor and discussing these issues...meds can be very helpful, but not if you don't take them.  Without a doubt, I think therapy is a must here as well, in addition to meds.  You need help navigating through this and exploring where this is coming from, and learning ways to stop this cycle of thinking.

Please let us know how you're doing...and good luck!

[RubyWitch]

Agreeing with lilymoon 100%. Your thinking is not only irrational, it is extremely paranoid.
I would strongly suggest getting into therapy as soon as possible.
Peace
Greenlydia

[lilymoon]

No this is not rational,it sounds like you are obsessively worried and anxious about getting hiv,you might want to get some counselling.lily

[nataliexxx]

Oh yes i have had talking theropies and it comes down to guilt as i cheated on my bf once. i am on anti depressents, which to be fair i havent taken for a a while.

is this anxiety or could this have happened to me?

[cj29]

Health anxiety is quite common in this forum.  It can manifest itself in many different ways, and my original source of anxiety came from concerns about my heart.  You have been tested and retested and you are HIV negative, so take comfort in that.  In my oipnion, what you need to do is confront the anxiety.  Have you had anxiety issues in the past?  Do you have access to counseling?  Talking over your fears with someone can definitely help in dealing with this in my experience....keep us posted!