Hi Everyone, I had a problem with my older account (Vince34), so I choose to create a new one...
I didn't post since a long time. In May and June my PDoc sent me to a group therapy, a kind of CBT therapy where you learn to cope with the anxiety, the symptoms, learn how to relax, breath, learn to change your negatives thoughts into positives ones, learn to communicate with the others, do teamwork, things like that. I was suppose to complete an intensive 8 weeks (monday to friday - 2 hours a day + 2 appointments every week, one with a Psychologist and another one with a PDoc), but after 4 weeks I had to stop the Therapy, it's seem that I was not improving at all, in fact my anxiety symptoms was 10 times bigger than before the therapy, I was so tired and anxious that I had to take more Inderal (for the tachycardia), more Xanax and more Rivotril to be able to go there each day. The PDoc there wasn't very nice with me, she was kinda bored by my complaints about my symptoms, she told me that I have a personality disorder, who is not true, told me that I was resistant to change... I was very dissapointed by her and call my PDoc to sold him that it was not the good thing for me... The goal was to face my fears like being in a car and go out of the house progressively, not to face my fears everyday for 8 weeks, it was too much for me and I wasn't able to cope with all of this, so my PDoc said that maybe he wasn't a good idea that I go there and sais it was ok that I stop... He talk to me about the mindfulness based stress reduction technic, saying that I don't answer to normal CBT therapy, but the first book I read about it said it was not good for the peoples who have a panic disorder... so i'm confuse...
Since then, my anxiety don't return to the point where it was before that group therapy. I was thinking that my anxiety will return to the point it was before, but I was wrong, it's like I stressed too much my body and now it's seem that I get new symptoms every week and my heart act really strangely again...
My main concern for now is the very low blood pressure, that I never had in the past, since 3 weeks my blood pressure is all the time under 100/50 especially at home even if i'm very anxious, who is really not normal for me since I always had a bordeline blood pressure of 140/90... I still have increase blood pressure when i'm in a situation who trigger a lot of anxiety like being in a car (tachycardia 130 and more of pulse rate), going out of the house, taking my shower (tachycardia 140 and more all the time), having a bowel movement (tachycardia), BUT since I don't get out of the house often, it's most of the time low, too low for me... it's so low that when I get up from a siting position I have orthostatic hypotension and everything spin around me for 30 seconds...also the more lower will be my blood pressure and the more strong and painful will be my chest pain on the left side of my chest, the pain tend to go in my neck, jaw, left arm (tingling sensation) and under my left armpit... I also get very tired when I stay sit for a long time, same if I stand up for too long, also have now throbing veins on the left and right temples of my head and it's painful all the time, it's like a migraine 24 hours a day, I have that pain since 4 weeks now...it's really annoying... I also have nausea when my blood pressure is too low and my ears rings all the time...
I call my Cardiologist again, complaint about my blood pressure, he said to stop the Inderal cause he said my blood pressure was too low for me, so for now I have nothing to stop the Tachycardia I still have very often especially in the morning... He look in my medical folder at all the heart tests I done in 2011 and in 2010 and look at the results, especially the stress test with the ecography of my heart and the 2 treadmill tests I done and he said that it's impossible that I have angina or unstable angina. He also say that it's impossible that I have a problem with a coronary arteries like atherosclerosis cause my cholesterol is perfect, homeocysteine is also good, so I canno't have a blood clot who stop the blood flow to my heart... I'm a lot confuse about what he said... I think that since he know that i'm having some anxiety disorder and fear a lot a heart attack, he think it's all related to the anxiety... So I call him and didn't had a real answer to my problems...
I try to talk to him about POTS (postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome) and ask for a tilt table test and he say no we don't do that kind of test here... I said ok... and talk about maybe an autonomic nervous system disorder and he say that he don't know what it is... and how to diagnostic it!!! I also speak about the possibility that I have a chronic fatigue syndrome and again he said it was not his speciality, that I had to ask to another Doc?!?...
Well, with the summer, the humidity and the hot wheater, I feel very bad.. I'm really tired... I have so many symptoms and i'm so tired (I feel physically tired, can't do normal things like taking a shower and clean the house), but when it's time to sleep I can't fall asleep... My insomnia wasn't that bad before the group therapy but since than it's worse than ever... can't take anything to make me sleep like the Seroquel cause my heart race all the time on that kind of med...
I see my Family Doc in 2 days, will have to ask for more tests... neck X-ray for the headache and jaw pain... maybe a new RX paper for another Cardiologist + a Neurologist... My Family Doc talk to me about some Botox injections for my headache, I wonder if it will help? I had in the past cortisol injections in my neck but it didn't help...
Also i'm a lot worried about my heart cause one friend of my sister just had a heart attack at 36 yo... she was doing some exercise at home on a treadmill and she had a heart attack... apparently, she had a lot of atherosclerosis in her veins... her Cardiologist told her that her anxiety was so bad that it's why she had a heart attack!!! She also have a panic disorder problem and had a lot of anxiety in the last year... she survive but it's seem that it's possible to have a heart problem even at only 36 yo, even if my PDoc say it's impossible and all the Therapist I had told me it was impossible also!!! I really need to know if I have some atherosclerosis since I smoke a lot and don't exercise since 4 years... but can't have a coronary angiogram cause my Cardiologist say it's expensive and at 35 yo it's impossible to have a problem with my heart!!!
The adrenal glands problem have been rull out, no problem just a low cortisol level, low adrenaline and low noradrenaline, who is normal when someone is under a lot of stress for a log time...
Well, i'm the only one who have a low blood pressure with anxiety??? That's seem so weird to me...
Any kind of advise please! Thanks ;-)