Anxiety everyday and night over anyeursm

[JCalifornia83]

Hello everyone im a male in my 30's little history chronic pain lower back previous lower back surgery anxiety panic attack health anxiety etc
I lately can't get my mind off the thought that I have an abdominal anyeursm everyday I think of it and it sends me in a panic attack my bp on average is 125/83 I smoke when I have bad panic attacks. Been to the er some many times all cardiac work points to normal multiple Ct scans with contrast shows a perfectly normal nonanyeursmal abdominal aorta but I still worry and think about it constantly especially if I fell pulsating in my back or abdomen pain to left of my spine even if I feel a air bubble pop in my belly it's sends me in to a panic attack I have to feel my pulses constantly it's getting hard to eat or sleep when you think u will die I've lost 64 pounds over the past year most of my time is at home in bed cause of all my issues won't let me do much so hears where I need some help or reassurance just how to get by without worrying every second and finally! Realize nothing is wrong oh and a final not I have no family history of anyeursm no Marfan syndrome

[Paxiled]

Just how much do you weigh?  How did you lose that much weight if you're lying in bed all the time?  Why are you checking your blood pressure all the time?  Why do you keep going to the ER instead of getting a regular doctor who knows you?  My point being, you're thinking yourself into a panic over and over but you're not doing anything about the issues you have that would be a consistent plan of treatment -- ERs just evaluate you as quickly as possible but then you're supposed to go to your doctor, not keep using the ER.  That's not what it's for.  If you're in bed all the time, for example, you'll never get over your back problems.  I don't know if you ever needed that back surgery or not, I wasn't there, but for most people it's an unnecessary surgery that is hard to recover from, but you can't do it lying down all the time -- you gotta move to keep the back loose.  So your main problem is, you're too anxious to get proper treatment.  All of us anxious people are like that to some extent.  To overcome it, you need to get into therapy with a psychologist who specializes in anxiety treatment, if it's this bad you might need a psychiatrist for medication, and you need an exercise program from a physical therapist to get you moving again.  

[JCalifornia83]

Thanx for the comment I actually have a regular family physician that knows of my condition the times I go to the er is when my brain thinks it something serious. I have a psychologist that does see me once a week I've tried years of physical therapy but it doesn't work I have permanent nerve damage the original surgery was needed or I probably wouldn't be walking...I just needed at this point to talk to people who may share the same phobias and could shine some light on how I feel...I'm  just a person reaching out to another

[Paxiled]

You left me a PM on this, but it says the same thing as on here, so let's let others have their say.  You say you go to the ER when your brain thinks it's serious, but since it happens over and over you already know the ER can't help you.  This is what anxious people do -- they panic.  As I say, I know nothing and will never know anything about your original surgery or what could have caused permanent nerve damage -- you know all that and it's done.  You have to now live with where you are now.  But the anxiety is getting in the way and it seems to be what's bothering you the most, and I get that.  I have a ton of physiological problems I'm afraid to tackle head on because of my anxiety.  Now, I got that way because of medication, so my case is different than the others on here, but in your case, if the psychologist isn't helping, you might need a different one or a different type of therapy.  CBT is the one that seems to work the most often for anxiety.  If it isn't working, though, and your life isn't working because of anxiety, then you might need to see a psychiatrist to get it under control.  I also know that PT can be hard to get right -- I've had tons of it as well and it becomes a lifestyle after awhile.  Then it stops working.  But once you've had surgery, you're not the original you anymore and the PT is supposed to teach you how to be the new you.  For the pain you might try acupuncture, whatever, because it will never reach stasis unless you move -- it will keep tightening up, and that could be what you're feeling that you think is an aneurism.  Nerve problems shoot pain all over the place.  There are meds that tackle that problem, such as Lyrica and Neurontin, though their success is moderate.  So there are things to consider, but only medical professionals of some kind will be of help because you have had surgery for a severe problem.  But the anxiety is something you can work on that will make your life better, and all I can say is, when a psychologist isn't helping you and you've been seeing that person for awhile, cut your losses and find a different one.