whoo ow whoo

[DJ873]

I reallly cant' believe i just did that!! Got the tooth pulled, went in knowing i could leave whenever i wanted, this place does the spa treatment, rubbed my feet, warm lavender pillow, I really did not think i would do it. They were amazed at how calm i was better than most without anxiety issues!!! I knew the angst for days would eat me up and be worse than the event itself. Just kept repeating to face the fear and do it anyway fear is not my master.]Even wrote a note to it, So Erin, Alison , we are doing this!!!


Dear fear, thank you for being there when i need you, your chemicals and energy can be useful if I am in true danger. But here is the deal, I am not your playground. You seem to think you can surface whenever you choose and mess up my life. I will let you know when i need you, otherwise you will hang out with sadness, dispair and my other emotions. You are not longer King, got it!!! I know you will try to force your way back to front and center but just know i am getting your number. I CHOOSE what is truly dangerous, I can see you for the bully but just know I am powerful, I am strong, I free myself by seeing you for what you are. I will let anger squash you like a bug and i will let peace override you. Change is in MY control.

[DJ873]

arg this hurts! trying not to take the pain meds as i got really faint this morning and i'm guessing that is what it was from. so i will be lurking and feeling your support but probably not real helpful today. Alison, hope you were able to go to your appt after feeling so bad last night, Erin, you are a warrior and hope you check in after your wisdom teeth pull out, wish you all a day of peace

[DJ873]

thanks friends! yep i'm holding you both to it! i told the lady there when i wanted to bail that i didnt want to have to post that i bailed  :) i had my wisdom out years ago, this was #3 but dang it hurts now! been about 3 hours so hope it starts letting up. this is one of my strongest phobias, anything i call invading my bubble, my friends have made a joke about my bubble when i dissapear they always say i am off blowing back up my bubble lol

[Alisonj29]

Whooooo!!!!!! Congratulations!!! I am so happy for you! I guess that means I have to have my test tomorrow. YIKES! Sounds like you are definitely on the right track. Good Luck with the wisdom teeth tomorrow Erin. I was happy once mine were gone as well.
Whoooooooooooooo!!!!!

[mammo]

Good for you!  You're in control and taking back your power!

[erin626]

Yay! I'm so happy for you! I knew you could do it. And now you have an excuse to eat a lot of ice cream for a couple days lol.

I'm getting 2 wisdom teeth pulled tomm and I'm actually excited lol. They absolutely need to go.. so we can recover together.

Now if only I could find a dentist who does spa treatment.

Great note too. It is so very true. We are not slaves to anxiety. And I think we all just need to remember that.