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[martin428]

i am still struggling with horrible thoughts some1 please help.....i have been having horrible thoughts for about a month since i seen a news story on some kids that murdered there mom....3months ago i was diagnosed with anxiety....i started thinking like oh my am i capable of that....like i started to just over think the situation and those negative thoughts just led to more and more horrible thoughts...these thoughts scare me and make me feel like there is no stopping the thoughts like i feel like my life is going downhill......i do tend to think about hurting myself and i guess i have thoughts of hurting people but i feel like i bring them up because i am soo scared to hurt anyone and to hurt myself....like i think about it as a precaution to stop myself if i get out of control....but the thing is i never get out of control i tend to over react to things.....i am seeing a therapist and at times i feel better but i am 100% sure i will not hurt any1 or myself as i never plan to but the thoughts just really realy scare me!!

[martin428]

yes its exacttly like that and i have told my therapist about this i tell him everything i am going through....at times i feel good but at times i feel like this isnt real liike i am so stuck in my mind....but thank you guys i will fight it and try to stay strong!

[Quetzali]

Your comment reminded me of what my psychiatrist once said, that I was "pathologically empathetic"... what happened to other people affects me almost as if I was them and though I do think that it is a good quality to care for others, I know how hard it is to live with it, specially when you can't even help yourself

[Quetzali]

Hi Martin, I was diagnosed with social anxiety and bipolar disorder and I have had those thoughts too. My thoughts involved my children. I don't have any yet and I am not sure I will ever want to have any because it scares me that I might hurt them or ruin their lives. I have read so many stories about people with depression or bipolar disorder murdering their children and since I once had a very bad Paxil withdrawal reaction, I know I can get a bit out of control.

What I did was talk to my therapist and family. I know it sounds stupid since I DON'T HAVE CHILDREN but I just couldn't stop thinking about it so I have always told them that if I ever have kids and I am not feeling well, they have to take them away from me and get me help.

I am not saying that you could hurt anybody, it's just that in my case, it reassures me to know that someone will be looking after me and my children and react in case they need to.

[rahrmc]

Hi, I am also diagnosed with anxiety and had the same symptom. One technique that I used to stop the horrible thoughts is talk to someone on the phone, or go to a neighbors house and tak about other things. I did that for a few weeks and now I don't have bad thoughts!

[remar]

To me, it does sound like possible OCD. Can you talk to your therapist about this next time you see him/her?

[martin428]

thank you guys soo much no i am not diagnosed with ocd only diagnosed with anxiety....as i really do not feel like hurting one but its always what-if i do? its hard to stop your thoughts!! and yes my therapist has showed me the breathing technique to try and sort of meditate so i can control my mind more and more little by little....rite know its really hard to cope with all this negativity  but hopefully good days are ahead!!

[JGF25]

Hi there....did they diagnose you with OCD?  Irrational thinking is a hallmark of OCD and honestly, people with OCD don't carry out these types of thoughts and because it is not in our make-up to act this way, we are bothered so much by the mere fact that we thought about it in the first place.  

You are not going to hurt anyone.  It is just your mind playing tricks on you.  The whole "What-if" thing.  Hopefully your therapist has taught you the controlled breathing technique.  It is a lot easier to think rationally when your heart isn't racing.  If you don't know it, let me know and I'll post it.  Take care.

[Life360_Dave]

You are a very empathetic person and have the rare ability to get into the minds of other people and in a sense become them. This is a gift from God and is talent that can be used to better all humanity. You understand other people. Take this gift and find a profession or occupation that can channel this ability you have. We are on this earth to partake in the grand evolution and are endowed with special tools to aide humanity which includes all living things. Become a Fireman or Policeman or para medic or veternarian. This gift is ment to be used. Congradulations!!!!