Extreme Panic & No support here

[Chrissy1972]

This week my Panic & Anxiety has been almost non stop. I dont know if the antibiotics I am taking for Ear infections is messing me up or if this is just a high anxiety week. But I cant feel calm at any point. I am so up & down. A Few mins ago i looked at a text message on my phone and when i looked up my entire visiion field was a blurr starting feeling  Like im going to pass out.My vision has been disturbed a lot this week especially in my right eye. I made a dr's appt to get that checked out just in case my vision changed.  Im extremely tired & fatigued. I am a single woman, I feel I have nobody to talk to about this. My father cant handle hearing me anxious, he has it as well and he can deal without meds etc....he feels I should be over this by now. I dont think he knows how extreme my panic gets. SOme days its a battle to get out that door into my car and here at work for 8 hrs functioning. My close friends know what I have but they dont totally understand so I cant go to them for support. I hate this and living my life like this. As Im typing I want to cry. Very emotional (crying) alogn with the panic this week which is very unlike me. Does anyone else feel so alone with this?

[home_techie]

Hi Chrissy, i deal with it as well, but its my husband, and i am watching these things, and it is very hard to understand, i guess some people are more susciptable to anxiety than others.. I see it every day, i deal the moods, fatigue, irritability, even crying bouts at times, and it is very hard to deal with, at times being the spouse of an anxiety ridden i wonder if i am the cause, i wonder how do i cause it, why do i cause it, i question myself every day, i question everything i do, will it be good enough for him? will he be moody today? will today be a good day? what have i done? what will happen tomorrow? so many questions go unanswered, it is very hard to deal with, one can be supportive, but always wonder if there is more that can be done to help (my reason for joining this group) I know we cant find the answers to everything,,,but at least we can try right?

[Chrissy1972]

Let me assure you, you do not cause his anxiety. Just be there for him. As long as he is trying to overcome it and you are not enabling him. He sounds lucky to have someone like you caring for him and trying to understand. But please know you are not the cause of his anxiety. In most people its a chemical imbalance or stress induced.

[bladerunner2000]

Hi chrissy,
I have been having a real anxiety week myself.  I know what you feel like.  I got what I call an anxiety attack at work on monday after a long christmas break, and had to go home. Its now thursday, and im still feeling the same.  I wake up every morning at about 5:30, and normally i sleep till 7:30 no problem. Then i toss and turn, and make myself sick.  I puke alot with my anxiety.  I have recently come off my effexor and its been close to 2 months off the meds now. I was fine for the first month, but have had several days where i get these attacks. I also had these attacks on the effexor, so i'm not sure how much it actually helped.  The attacks werent as often or as bad though.  Are you on any meds???
I find myself breaking down and crying alot lately too, I really dont understand whats happening.  It just gets worse and worse though, b/c my appetite is gone when im like this.  Your not alone out there....i often feel the same way. I have support from family and friends, but they dont understand whats going on, its just sometimes nice to have someone there for support.

[Jen8773]

Boy oh boy do i no how you are feeling. I just posted last night how bad my anxiety was. I also was wanting to cry while typing it, and when i prayed to god last night to help met threw this hell i was crying. I didnt feel good last night, had symptoms of the flu or some kind of bug, well that made me think something was wrong w/ me because im such a worrier, so i had a panic attack. So i do think being sick can certainly heighten panic attacks. When i have a panic attack i feel like im going crazy that im going to end up in a mental institution or something. I get dizzy, nauseous, and shaky. I've been on 50mg of zoloft for id say 7yrs or so, recently increased the dosage to 75mg...does not feel like its kicked in yet. I hope it does. Are you on meds for the panic attacks? If not id see your doctor so they can help you. I feel alone as well in this, i think we all do in a way. I'm here if you ever need to talk, good luck and you will be in my prayers.  

[Chrissy1972]

Hi all Thanks for your comments.

I am on 20mg of Paxil and .50mg-.75mg of xanax a day. I also do talk therapy.
For some reason when I am sick or under the weather my anxiety just spirals. I have been having a lot of visual disturbances with it which is so annoying as well as scary!
Jen-if you just started the increase it will prob take a few weeks to kick in, i tried increasing my paxil recebntly from 20 to 30mg and that made me even more anxious i felt too sleepy & lethargic as well. Give it some time. I see my med NP on the 18th. We will revisit my progress.
I am going to try to take a hot bath now ith some lavendar oils pamper myself a bit. The listened to some guided meditation. Little spa time out for me.
Thanks for takign the time out to reply. I wish you all well.